Y/n Stark

New Jersey

Y/n POV
It was a surprisingly quiet night. I had actually a chance to catch some sleep without any help from Wanda. I still got up early to head out for my undercover meeting. My anxiety grew with every hour passing by because I knew that I will be seeing him soon. I got ready wearing all black for a good cover. I took my bag and went to the kitchen first. I made myself a coffee to go and ate an apple. At least something needs to be in my stomach before I will faint or anything. Before I could walk of with the bag in my hand and the coffee in my other Nat walked in on me. „Trying to sneak out without saying goodbye?" she ask blocking me from leaving. „You know i am not Good at This." she raised a brow „well at least it's just a couple days and I know where you will be." I nod in agreement „yeah I will be faster back than you know it." I tried to make her laugh and it worked a bit. „We need some quality time when you come back... and i want details on You're steamy night with Wanda." she pointed at me making me blush. „We really need some quality best friend time. I agree with that. But you won't get any information about my sex life Nat." she laughed now even more. „Oh I will. I just have to wait patiently for it." she said smirking. „Come here." I dropped my bag and put the coffee aside pulling her into a tight hug. She hugged me right back. „Why does this hug feel like a bad goodbye?" i hugged her even tighter now. „Don't ruin the moment Romanoff. A hug is just a hug." „no it's not." We released ourselves from the hug and I looked at her one last time. „I really have to go Nat. Love you." I said taking my things to head to the garage. „Love u too bestie."she said softly. I went to the garage throwing my bag into the passenger seat next to me. I got in and started the engine. I took one deep breath trying to collect myself because now there won't be a turning back.
„Come on you can do this." I mumbled under my breath starting to drive away. I drove off and looked into the car mirror seeing how the compound got smaller with every second.
The car drive was pretty well. The streets weren't so full as expected. Probably because it's to early. My car was on speed limit so I could minimize the time to 5 hours. Also because I didn't take any break.
New Jersey her I am. It was rush hour by now and the streets are packed and stuffed with cars and busses. I drove to the abandoned building but didn't park immediately in front of it. I was parking a block away from the building. Taking all the weapons I took with me. Guns, tasers, knifes. Fully packed. I am so paranoid that I took so much with me. Even tho I have my powers. I can't control them fully but still. I couldn't count on them completely. I got out off my car and walked a couple blocks around the building. It looks like a normal neighborhood. Nice and friendly people. Kids playing around. Some diners. And a car wash. Some shops. Everything you need in a small place. But this abandoned building is kinda off. In such a nice neighborhood. I Stood there across the street looking closely at the building from far away. I saw some kids playing in Avengers costumes. One was wearing a hulk fist and the other one iron mans helmet. One of them looked at me and ran into my direction. „Are you new here miss? I haven't seen you around?" he asked me taking off his helmet. „Didn't you're parents tell you not to talk to strangers kid?" I looked down on him. „They did. But you look lost. I thought I could help." he shrugged his shoulders. I kneeled down to look a bit closer at him. „I am not lost. I am just curious about that building over there." I pointed over to the building across the street. „Do you know something about it?" I asked and her looked back at me. „This was some kinda of hospital. I don't know what exactly happened but it's always scary to walk by. Some people say that there is someone living in it. But their to scared to walk in." he said a bit scared.
„Okay thank you kid." I tapped his shoulder. „I am Ben." he said smiling at me. „I am Y/n. It was nice to meeting you." he grinned at me and ran off to play with his friend again.

I don't know what I was thinking but it wasn't a good idea to walk into this building in the day time. So i went back to my car and drove of to get some food. After my meal I went back to the building parking again a couple blocks away. I practically scanned the surrounding completely making sure that there isn't anything suspicious. And there wasn't. It was totally normal wich gives me a weird feeling. After some hours it was already dusk. The sun went down and the night came through. So I decided to go for it. I went from the back entrance that I searched an hour ago. I took a flashlight with me to see anything. It was freaking dark in here I couldn't even see my own hand if there wasn't any light. This is creeping me out. It smells like mould and the air is moisture. There is this concise smell of hospital. You know the one smell that Is in every hospital as soon as you enter. This one, and I can't get used to it. There are smashed windows and broken doors. It was a really small hospital. It had three floors but it was compact. There are old pictures of New Jersey hanging skewed on the walls. Something must've happened in here that for sure. I practically went through ever floor and into every room looking for the one person I thought I would never see again. I felt ridiculous to search for him. To drive all the was to New Jersey just to see him. What am I gonna do if he's here? Get back with him? I don't know if I can. I mean I still love him but everything that has to do with him has caused me trauma. Well technically I was the one causing the trauma but still, he is connected to all of it and I don't know if i can move on and live with him a normal life like nothing happened... and then there is Wanda. I just can't let her down like this. We had our ups and downs but she has been there for me even tho I was shutting her down and I am still doing it. I guess Vision had a point when he said that I wasn't good for her. I mean we're not even a thing. I don't even know if am ready for this but I don't wanna lose what I have with her. She means a lot to me. I've reached the last floor and my anxiety grew rapidly. Why am I so afraid of seeing him again. The last room was a big hall. It looked like a canteen. There was still no sign of him. So I called out for him hissing his name. „Thomas?"
Silence. „Psst Thomas?!" and again nothing. I heard a rustling behind my back and I turned around quickly finding Thomas standing in the door way.

„Y/n? Is it really you?" he asked surprised. I just stood there still holding the gun and flashlight at him not really believing what I am seeing. I think I am delusional. Is this really Thomas? Or am I in some kinda off parallel world? „I could ask you the same... how? Y-you died in my arms!" everything started to get to the surface. Every emotion, every feeling, all of it came back hitting me. I lost him not even once but twice and he is now standing completely alive in front of me? What am I missing? This can't be real! „It's really me." he said raising his hands in surrender. My gun was still pointed at him. I can't bring myself to lower it. „Are you gonna kill me with that?" he asked playfully motioning to the gun. I lowered it slowly letting my guard down and tucking it into the back of my jeans.
„I've killed you once. That's enough." he steps closer while saying „no you didn't. I am here look at me. I am real." he said now being only a meter away.
„You better tell me what is going on before I lose my marvels. How is it possible that you are standing in front of me?" I asked completely confused. „Let me hug you first." he said reaching his arm out and pulling me into a thigh hug. It is really him. I can feel him, touch him, smell him. His heart beat, I can hear it as my head I laying on his chest. I wanted to cry but my emotions are so muddled that I can't concentrate on one emotion. We hugged for a long time and it felt good to be in his arms. His love and his warmth surrounding me. We released ourselves from the hug and just looked at each other. „It has been almost four years and I am still not over you. I am trying to do that...you know ‚moving on'. You said I should move on but how was I supposed to do that when you weren't around. It was all my fault and i will Cary it with me forever." he shook his head softly cupping my face. „I am sorry that you had to go through all of this. It wasn't you're fault. It just happened." I shook my head no letting tears roll down my face. „no I should have listened to you."
He shrugged his shoulders „well you're just as stubborn as I am. I love it that way." he said.
„How... did you survive?" I asked getting to the most important question. He let out a sight and let go of my face. He was tense when i asked This but I need to know. I need closure so desperately.
„All I know is that I woke up in the hospital. They told me that my heart stopped for 12 minutes but the could bring me back and I was in a coma for long." He stopped and looked me deep in the eyes. „The haven't told me anything else wich was weird. I knew that you where alive. After everything happened time has passed and it was two years from the accident." I gasped quiet taking in every information. He is definitely hiding something from me, but I can't think of anything. I thought back to the letter wich he send me days ago. How did he know my address? How does he know that I am a Stark? I never told him the time we where together. I was covering my last name and took another one to stay undercover. This means he must know about my life and about the avengers. „Tom how do you know that I am a Stark? I never told you..." I asked curious expecting a solid explanation.

He just looked at me with a puzzled. As if he wasn't prepared for this question but I was curious since I read the letter. „Tom!!" I raised my voice at him.
„What do you mean babe? You've told me that."
Is he really trying to play me like that? Does he think I am stupid? „I don't know what is going on but you better speak up. You're definitely keeping something from me!!!" he shrugged his shoulders playing dumb. I know him to well. I don't believe him. I can see exactly when he is lying. Before I could say anything else I felt a blunt hit on my neck and I fainted directly. Everything went black.