Drastic Brothers: Secrets

59. Thinking about Jane

Wow. I haven't updated for almost a month..ouch , sorry guys I know how it is when you really want to read the next chapter. I just been so busy with school work. Stressing me out big time. But things somewhat are more calm. Since I had time to write I decided I will update. 15+votes and I will update the next chapter that's currently on hold (:

Hope you guys like this intense chapter.

Chapter 59.

Justin's POV

Everything feels surreal now, it's like slowly things are getting back to how it was but at the same time it's not. In a way it's like a due over with Jane. The talks with her make me feel like I'm dreaming, slowly gaining her trust again. Some of her old memories are coming back, she tells me them and I'm happy.

My favorite memory so far was the one of the party before I left for the summer. The way we danced together was memorable. Not because we danced together like we were one, each inch of our body pressed together but because we let loose. Our dance competition with every old school and funny move we could think of- yes we were one of kind. I still could remember her sprinkler dancing.

"Yo dude seriously!" Danny yelled.

"What?!" I yelled back angrily staring at him.

"Stop thinking about her already" he mumbled looking away.

Great. Here we go, another person telling me what to do when it came to Jane. People just didn't understand the guilt I felt and how much I regretted not fighting sooner. Experiencing the loss of her not only once but twice was killing me. Yes we began talking now again-like a do over friendship but I wanted so much more. I need her so much now. But I can't be selfish again. Not ever again when it comes to her. I had expected too much of her before when age lost her memory. I shouldn't have over reacted about her not remembering me. I should have been there all the time, helping her remember.

"You can't live in regret always" Danny said looking at me with pity.

"You don't understand man. This girl means everything to me. I let myself get mad at her for not remembering me but remembering everyone else and I - can you imagine the pain I felt? I let my anger consume me because she didn't remember. At the time I thought it was because she didn't love me enough to remember me "I said angrily thinking about my own stupidity.

"Man, everyone knew you were pissed. Everyone has their own way of dealing with things. No one is judging you" Danny said patting my back.

"Do you think we would be together if I tried and never gave her up to my brother?" I asked thoughtfully not bothering to comment on his last comment.

I wasn't that much of a idiot, I know what everyone thought about my actions. After all they all made it clear when I was consumed by anger. Danny zoned out for a bit thinking of the possibility, I could see him thinking hard. I respected him a lot but Danny never told me anything to hurt me- even if it was the truth. There was so many questions I thought of that may change everything.

What if she never got turned?

What if she remembered when she woke up?

What if I never marked Leah?

What if I fought her?

What if I would have tried to make her remember?

What if she didn't leave the pack?

What if she loved me too much to walk away?

All these questions swarmed in my mind. But these what if questions were killing me. The relationship we once had would never be like it was before all this. She trusted me now but it wasn't the same as before and things were becoming overwhelming. Jason is working way more now in his dirty business now a days and Misty still hasn't spoken to Drew. She loves him- I truly believe that but the fact Jane is gone is what keeps her away. Everyone has tried to talk some sense into her but she doesn't say a word other than her baby.