Drastic Brothers: Secrets

41. Letter of truth

Chapter 41

Letter of truth

Jane POV

I stood in the shower looking at the ceiling. Everything felt so odd around me. Nothing had meaning, not the pictures or other valuables scattered. This emptiness was only to be filled when he came back. I never thought having Chris gone again could make me feel so empty. I cried for hours at night thinking about him. I was the reason why he felt depressed. I was his mate yet I didn't feel anything I should. Yes I felt attractive to him but my heart was taken already. I know Chris's love was unconditional and never ending, but Derek was too right? I mean he always put my needs first and that's what made me fall for him in the first place. There was never pressure and that brought joy to me. That couldn't be just because he use to be my mate.

I felt my eyes so heavy, I turned off the water and stepped out. I looked into the mirror to see a girl I didn't recognize. My eyes were a dull brown that looked so lifeless. Like looking through glass. I sighed and turned away from the mirror. I dried my body and went to my closet. I was so weak. Every movement I made took a lot of energy and I was walking around like a zombie. I changed into another pair of sweats and t-shirt with sweatshirt. I put my puffy socks and walked to my bed. I curled up and faced my window. I haven't seen anyone the past two days. Made up a lie about my blood lust sky rocketed. So now I'm stock up on blood. I been here and haven't left. I'm scared to try to contact Chris but the need is there. It's only getting worse for me. It's been three months with him gone. All that kept happening was school and pack trainings. Graduation was next month and soon I would be a graduate. I hope Chris comes to my graduation, he has to be there. I was happy no one really noticed my mood except Saxon. He knew I was lying since the moment I came up with the lie. Apparently if my blood lust sky rocketed he would be dead because as my servant he needed to fulfill my hunger-- yea whatever that means. I told him my feelings and everything vamp said--and to say he was shocked was a understatement. The look on his face was like I had told him I had three eyes.

He stayed with me a while and got my mind off my emotions for a while until he had to leave. After he left I came up with the lie. The happiness wrapping this house was too big and it killed me Chris wasn't around. Saxon left yesterday to talk to Chris, saying he would get him to return. I just shrugged and paid little attention. That was two days ago when I last talked to him.

Looking out the window I felt depressed. I just wanted every emotion to disappear. After much gourde spent with boredom and random thoughts, I took a look around my room. I needed a distraction. Something to get my mind off this funk mood I was in. Then I spotted Justin's sports bag. I got up off the bed and went to my duffle bag. I dumped everything on the bed and picked up Justin's letter. I needed to read it while he was near. But reading just a little wouldn't hurt right ? I stopped open the envelope and read :

Jane,

I know once you see this letter, whatever friendship we might have, will definitely disappear. You asked me who I was, and I told you, your best friend -- the easiest answer. But that was only half the truth. I wasn't only your best friend but your boyfriend as well. You might be wondering what happened between us, why did we break up? Well let me start from the beginning.

We met on September 18, Friday night. It was freshman year and Jason brought you over. It was the first time you noticed me, not just ignore me. You were wearing just simple black jeans and shirt with a leather jacket. . Your brown hair was down and your beautiful brown eyes looked in pain. You looked so shaken up, it was ---

*****Flashback *****

"Jason I don't know if coming was a good idea, I mean won't your family get upset you have a drug dealer here in your home " I whispered to him.