Drastic Brothers: Secrets

61. Verdict

61. Verdict

Jane POV

I think I truly messed up when I talked to Tian. I hurt him and just remembering looking into his eyes burning with so much pain made me want to cry. I see him more often now but I believe that's because he is scared that something will happen again to me but I know there's a emotional barrier between us. My thoughts were jumbled around. Half of me wanted to run back and tell Jay to mark me while the other half wanted desperately Tian. I was racking my brain trying to sort my thoughts. It was impossible to feel this way. I mean you can't love more than one person. But why is that just the thought of either one being with someone made me want to murder?

I sighed and slowly lifted myself up on the bed. I grabbed my phone from the bedside table and quickly dialed Jay. I needed to talk to Jay so I would feel somewhat normal again. I waited a couple rings but he didn't answer. I disconnected the call and starred at my phone in my hands in disbelief. Jay always answered my calls, regardless the time of day or what he was doing and now he didn't.

I felt my fist tighten around the phone. My anger was getting harder to control now a days. I could feel like something inside me was growing again and that left me unsettled but also craving Tian more. My thoughts were seriously off the charts. I hadn't even told anyone back at the pack what happened to me- just one more call. Redialing and counting the rings I prayed that he answered. But after a couple more rings his voicemail started. I clicked and felt my frustration was building inside me. I needed to just forget all this. One day at a time I reminded myself. Closing my eyes I laid back on the bed- overthinking about everything wouldn't make things better. I needed to remember what my mom told me about dealing with issues one day at a time was the only way to get through things.

First I needed to talk to Tian and apologize to the way I have been treating him and making it up to him. Getting off the bed I changed into something more casual than my jersey shirt and shorts. After dressing I ran into someone as I tried stepping out. Looking up I came face to face with Tian. His eyes were filled with surprise as he looked at me. Scratching my neck from awkwardness I tried to think of what was the right thing to say at the moment.

I'm sorry?

No - I said that hundreds of times and sorry never changed anything.

I love you !

No. He knows that by heart.

"We need to talk" he said calmly  as he took hold of my hand.

My heart raced and I wasn't sure if this conversation would be good. Biting my lip from the nerves I just quickly nodded knowing one way or another our talk needed to happen. He gently grabbed my hand and tugged me out. Walking down the halls I followed aimlessly as I tried to gather my thoughts in what exactly to say to make things uncomplicated. Stepping through some doors- the last thing k expected was to come face to face with the royals. Everyone was shocked at my arrival. I guess I wasn't the only surprised one.

"What is she doing here ? I thought this meeting was about discussing the union of covens and marriage" Jordan said looking at me in panic.

Marriage ? At the mention of that my eyes snapped to Tian, is this what we needed to talk about I thought  lifting my eyebrow in surprised. So that's the reason he was distant. He was getting married with Jordan after all.

"I think she wouldn't feel comfortable here" his father said calmly.

"She shouldn't be here" his mom said in outrage.

"Don't you mean from where I came from? I know lots of people thinking that this moment" I said gritting my teeth, my eyes flashing.

I knew my words were challenging the royals around but at the moment I didn't care. He could be Ryder to all these people but to me he was always Tian to me. If he wanted me gone he would have to say it clearly. But he's the one that brought me. The thoughts of these obnoxious royals can go to hell.