Drastic Brothers: Secrets

47. Lights Out

Chapter 47

      Lights Out

Chris POV

I always heard saying goodbye becomes easier but honestly it was lies. Saying goodbye never was easy, saying goodbye was the most sad moment to everyone. Whether it be a goodbye by departing to different parts, saying goodbye to the one person you love or even goodbye to place you love the most, goodbye was always depressing. Since the moment I returned, I knew she couldn't love me but somehow I stayed with the hope. There's a saying that says love never runs out if hope is alive, but the pain is excruciating. Leaving her this time made me realize how hard it was to be at her side. But at the same time it was being near her that was addicting to me. The need for her blood only made everything worse. Of course she didn't know anything but her blood called out to me all the time. Every time I comforted her, the blood pumping in her system made me want to sink my fangs inside. Her blood was addicting. It's like I became a Janeholic after the first taste. Many nights I would stay up and have exotic dreams about her drinking from me. It was the most erotic thing ever and the feelings I felt after I woke up only made me realize it was just a dream and have a need for long showers.

Coming back to the castle and continuing to do my prince duties allowed me some distraction. I never stopped thinking about Jane. On the contrary, I believe that I spent more of my time thinking of her than paying attention to my duties. It wasn't something new to anyone but my mother and father were becoming worried. Soon my father would step down and I would have to take control, but I needed my mate to rule. How would I explain my mate was with another person ?

Groaning in frustration, I threw all my papers to the floor and let my head fall to the counter. Without her I didn't want to take crown. A thousands times I rather have my cousin rule than me take a fake bride as my mate or force my mating bond on Jane. Running my hands through hair I looked at the table thinking of how to tell me parents my decision. My decision was never something I thought I would do.

Jane POV

The days continued and as they passed I realized several things. First, Justin had someone already. Regardless of anything I felt, my feelings I had for him were the old ones not new. Even if I did take a liking to our moments spent together. I didn't know if they would be any different if I was with him now trying to work on things. Secondly, Chris was my best friend that guided me all the time. Risking that friendship was one thing I wasn't willing to risk. Out of everyone in my life, Chris was the only one that was real with me all the time. Then there was Derek, my boyfriend that started a relationship without telling me things hundred percent. Knowing all this made me wonder, was I ever living at all? I mean everyone that I love lied to me. Even if their decisions were justified, could I trust them ? In situations like this, there was never really a wrong or a good action. The ultimate decision was mine, despite if others might think it was wrong. Being away didn't help me much as I thought it would. I still thought about everything and I could even imagine their faces with everything I thought about. The betrayal the pack did to me was taking up most of my thoughts. Instead of thinking of who I really should be with, the lack of trust from the pack haunted my mind. Howard's words echoed in my mind clearly.

*** Flashback ***

It all started the day of becoming the pack warrior leader. Howard had come to look for me after speaking with Drew.

"Can we take a walk my little bug?" he asked looking out to the woods.

"Of course" I said and followed his foot steps behind him.

No one seemed to see us, and probably the ones that did, didn't really care. I observed pops face and noticed the way his face screamed sadness and I didn't understand.