Drastic Brothers: Secrets

56. Truth

56.
Starting the year off with a chapter , I hope you enjoy it<3

Chris POV

There's moments in life where you realize all the bad things you've done, and you feel so disappointed in yourself. There's many things in my life I wasn't proud of- I - I realized that there was so many choices I have taken that I regretted so much. Not being there for my mate was the biggest one. All the major things that have happened to her I wasn't near. I judged Justin for not fighting for her, for pushing her towards her brother and leaving her so clueless to everything but here I was doing the same.

I was a hypocrite.

Fate screwed her over big time by giving us idiots the right to call her mate. We were unworthy of calling her ours, we didn't protect her. I have been distant due to my responsibilities but I should have at least stopped by every night to see how she was doing. I was a bad mate. No wonder she never started to grow feelings for me, I wasn't worthy of it. I wasn't there for her when she was in pain for me , when her mom died, when she started dealing drugs for money, when she got attacked, or when she started falling for Justin. There was so much things I wish I was there for but I wasn't at all. Now with all her more recent pain, dealing with the judgement of her old pack because she was different and now finally her deciding to come here with me. I messed up big time by not controlling my hunger earlier. It was my fault all this started.

"Christian don't blame yourself" Linda my father's best friend said snapping me out of my thoughts.

"I don't know what you mean" I said acting clueless while looking at Jane.

I disliked so much the lack of color in her face. It made me think she was dead and that very thought was my biggest fear.

"I could hear your thoughts Christian. Did you forget that's my gift ?" Linda said from across the room.

"How long until she's awake again?" I asked.

I didn't care about anything except her. I was careless about her safety, now some one has hurt her. Everything in me was shaking of anger because it's my job to protect her. I wouldn't stop until I knew exactly who tried to kill her. I would make them pay dearly for hurting my mate. Everyone knew I was only being formal now and speaking to people because of my mate but someone crossed the line. Ryder would be soon showing his command to everyone to tell me who did this.

"I couldn't tell who hurt her ..the poison is lethal. Should have killed her but the last remaining werewolf blood kept her alive" Marie said softly.

"Christian what if a royal hurt her, then what?" Linda interrupted my thoughts again.

"Then I hope for their sake I don't ever find out. Did you forget what happened to the wolf that scarred her that one night ?" I questioned.

I turned to look at her and notice the far away look so got for a moment. Then the cringing her body did recalling the events. I had killed that wolf painfully for trying to harm her. That day I connected with my inner beast and was known to be Ryder. Once my mindset was in Ryder mode I was cruel, and the only person that mattered was my Rose. Anything could happen and I honestly wouldn't think to much about it unless it concerned my mate. I still remember when I caught her scent when I went back to town.

*flashback *

I was so tired of hearing mother instill rules of the kingdom to me. Even though it sounded selfish, I didn't care for the kingdom. All I wanted to do was see her one more time. I had finally learned to control my thirst and could be around humans. Meaning- I could be around her. Oh, I missed her so dearly. Everyday felt so long because I wasn't allow to see her, speak to her, or even visit her. In the beginning I didn't understand because she was my mate. I knew it inside my heart. But I felt my heart breaking when mother said there was a possibility of killing her when blood cravings kicked in, and being the naive kid I was back then I believed her.