Drastic Brothers: Secrets

33. I will always sing to you

Chapter 33

I will always sing to you

**this was one of my favorite Justin POV because it shows you his thoughts that haven't been covered. Hope you guys love this chapter**

Justin POV

After driving away from her apartment I headed to the pack house. The whole drive back she was on my mind. I finally had my own moment with Jane. So many times when I had her in my arms I craved to feel her lips against mine. This whole day drove me crazy having her close and having to control Jaydon at the same time. Now that I was away from her I could feel my wolf restless.

'I need her ' my wolf growled.

' I was with her today and that should be enough for you '

' I want mate '

'She has Derek'

' I hate that you took my mate '

' I didn't !'

' Keep telling yourself that '

I sighed and continued to drive my bike until I was near pack grounds. I passed the patrol guards and then parked my bike in the garage. I was so tired of all the thoughts in my head. What would she think of me when she read the letter ? When she saw all the pictures of us together, would she hate me? Could I bare to loose her again ?

The first time I let go thinking I was doing best. I believed destiny wanted her with my brother. I mean I could see her happiness whenever he was around her and that itself made me keep the distance. It killed me having her away from me and seeing her in love with Derek. I still remember the first time I saw love in her eyes for him. It broke me to see the girl of my life seeing not only another guy with love but my brother. I think that is the worst pain because I have her in my life forever.

No matter what I tried to do nothing could keep me from thinking of Jane. She constantly invaded my every thought. The way her hair fell naturally messing yet tamed made me admire. Her perfect skin that she allowed only certain amount of makeup to make her features stand out. Those hypnotizing eyes that held so many stories that could never be told. The mystery behind her mischievous smile and her perfect lips that made me hard. Body of a true goddess. My goddess that could be so seductive that if she wished, she could bring any man to her feet.

Being with Leah became very difficult and I felt guilty for not giving her the love she deserves. She is my mate now and yet I can't show affection towards her as my companion unless Jane was around. When she wasn't around I would treat Leah just as a friend. I couldn't help but feel this way because not only did my wolf want only Jane but so did I. Nothing Leah or any other girl could compare to Jane.

I felt so guilty and ashamed. I knew the truth was going to hurt Jane in more ways than I wanted to admit to myself back when I claimed Leah. I was being a jealous fool and used Leah as my scapegoat. I know both Leah and I wanted to escape from the pain. I knew as a mutual agreement we would find a way to connect; however , we were both on different pages.

The nagging from Danny made me remember constantly about my mistake. I regret so much about claiming Leah and not fighting for Jane. I was such a fool blinded by rage seeing Jane show affection to my brother. I honestly believed if I dated Leah, the jealously would awaken and she would remember.

Nothing happened. There was only one time I remember her feeling anger.

The day I introduced Leah as my mate. It was the look in her eyes that made me look away. Desperately I tried to keep my wolf under control. He loved the power she radiated when she was angry. He wanted to claim her in front of everyone and not give a dam who saw us.