Don't Leave Me // TMR // Newt

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Newt's POV:

I stood up from the chair and paced around Y/N's room, biting my fingernails. It was a really bad habit, I do it when I need to relieve stress, or something.

Did Y/N really mean what she said? Or was it just because she was drunk?

I-I mean she can't kill herself, right? She won't. She can't. I won't let her. She's so bloody precious and fragile, she's the only one that could ever make me happy. Without her, I'd be gone--but that's the way she feels about Ben.

I don't care though, as long as she's here with me, I'm bloody fine. It's enough for me.

I know it sounds bloody selfish, but I don't mean it that way. I love her, I want to know every inch of her. I feel like I remember her but I'm not exactly sure, she's not a little sister to me, but something more.

Maybe if I got her to love someone else..hmm, but wait, I don't want her to buggin' love someone else, I want her to love me, but she never will.

She's so perfect and gorgeous and I'm just, I don't know. One lanky guy in a group of a bunch of other great boys.

I ran my hands through my hair and wiped my pathetic shuck tears.

She bloody loves Ben, and without him, she's not herself.

I-I can't bloody deal with this anymore, what am I going to do? I've liked her for years and she's never showed feelings for me, even before she was dating Ben..

I started thinking aloud,

"I love her. I should really tell her, but I can't. Especially with everything happening and--"

The door creaked open. It was Alby.

"Newt who the buggin' shuck are you talking to?"
--"Uh, Y/N."
"Y/N is sleeping."
--"I didn't know that." I lied, obviously.
"Whatever. Wait, what the shuck are you even doin in here?"
--"I was just keeping an eye on her, she's really drunk. I'm surprised she didn't bloody pass out."
--"Shucking take her to the medjacks or something."
--"She's fine, I can bloody take care of her just as well as Clint and Jeff can."
"Alright, well just make sure you ain't doing anything s--"
--"I bloody know that, I wouldn't take advantage of her anyway."
"Night." Alby finally shut the door and I checked on Y/N.

She was breathing steadily, but tears were running down her eyes even though she was bloody sleepin.

She's probably dreaming about Ben. I sat in her room for the night, I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep, just in case she would bloody try something.

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