stuck with a phobia ; lee felix

𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓻𝓽𝔂-𝓸𝓷𝓮

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"You said what now?!" Ivy hollers in my ear; it was a miracle I hadn't gone tone deaf by now.

It's been a long while since Ivy and I had talked with each other, especially due to the contrast in our time zones, and both our hectic schedules.

As much as I missed hearing her loud voice, I sure as hell didn't miss her screaming against my ear drums.

"Okay, so I might have laughed at Felix's face when he said to go on a date with him," I slouched over the small sofa in my room as I munched on a peculiar flavor of pocky. Note to self; never purchase chocolate banana pocky again.

"Oh Hailee, dear, stupid Hailee," I hear her sigh into the phone, "I've met idiots, but you're probably the most idiotic of them all. How could you let such an opportunity slip away?!" she scolds.

"Opportunity? Do you think I like him or something? We're just friends." I refuted.

"Just friends?" She asks skeptically. "I doubt Felix wants to be just friends with you."

"What makes you say that?" I was intrigued, yet a heavy feeling deluged in my stomach, as I clutch onto a pillow. I would never gather the idea of Felix having a crush on me, when there was literally an entire school worshipping him like some authoritative figure. I mean sure, he acted all flirtatiously with me, but I assumed that was just part of his personality.

That was the only sensical reasoning.

"Well, we talk almost everyday," she yawns.

Everyday? Felix conversed with Ivy more than I had? It was partially shocking, considering how close both Ivy and Felix were, but talking to her more than I did was very well unexpected. How could they have so much to talk about anyway?

"—But that's besides the point. I'm sure he's given you some signs of interest, hasn't he?"

That he did, but I had no idea if he meant any of them the way Ivy was motioning to.

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I decided that avoidance would only make things awkward, therefore I was going to face Felix as if nothing had ever happened.

Oh, but what a lie.

As soon as I saw him in the hallway, I rushed over to the bathroom, attempting to hide. I was no doubt a coward, and thinking I could suppress my feelings was also a dumb idea.

Of course I couldn't hide in here forever, but for the time being, I could only hope.

As I stared back in the mirror, I reminisced everything that really happened that day.

"Let's go on a date," Felix said, his honey eyes locked with mine. We both stood there, analyzing each other, his dead serious face and my heat flared face. That was until I creased up into laughter, bringing a hand up towards my mouth to control the uncontrollable giggles leaping out of me, but it did no help whatsoever.

"Oh yeah, and let's go scuba diving in Mars," I punched his shoulder playfully, horrendously giggling.

I sigh, and slap my face with some water after recalling that embarrassing flashback.
Ivy was right, I was an idiot. I should be written
down in the record books.

Felix caught me so off guard, how could I believe that was anything other than a joke! It was hard to imagine Felix even bearing that kind of feeling towards me anyway.

Still, despite what he meant, he definitely did not
deserve that.

The chiming of the bell caused me to flinch, as I realized it was time to begin another tiresome day of brutal lectures.