My Only Hope

Chapter 4

I woke Up around 11:30 and had a ton of texts.
Nate: Lilly.
Nate: Lilly!!
Nate: wake up!!
Nate: did you make plans with jack?
Nate: if not I will for you
Nate: why aren't you answering?!
Nate: get yo lazy butt up!!
Nate: LILLYAN MAY WILKINSON!!!!
I laughed at all the texts and texted back
L- nate oh my god calm youself, I just woke up.
And I had a few from jack

Johnson🙈🙊: hey
Johnson🙈🙊: did you fall asleep?
Johnson🙈🙊: I guess you fell asleep.
Johnson🙈🙊: okay goodnight💩
I texted him back.
L- sorry long day xx

Nate: so you gunna hang out with jack today?
L: nate, I hang out with him everyday. Nothing has changed.
Nate: except for the fact that you know he likes you.
L: well as we know now, he's liked me for a while, so really nothing has changed.
Nate: mmhmm.
L- you're an idiot💕
Nate: you're a hoe it's a okay👌
L: 😂😂

Johnson🙈🙊: what do you wanna do today?
L: I'll be over in like, an hour?
Johnson🙈🙊: okay😊
I locked my phone and got dressed. I put on a plain baby blue t- shirt with my lulu lemon leggings and flats. I left my hair down and did some makeup.
I walked downstairs and sat by Sam.
"Sam can you drive me to jacks?" I ask.
"Why don't you get your own license?" He asks.
"Because I'm lazy and even if I did I'd still have to have an adult in the car" I say.
"Fine" he groans and gets his keys and we walk out to his car.
We drive to jacks.
"Thanks" I say and get out and walk inside.
"Hey" gilinsky and johnson say in unison.
"Hey guys" I say sittin on the hair across from the couch.
"So last night nate called and he said you guys were dating and stuff" Johnson's says and I mentally laugh.
"Why?" I ask.
"He was trying to trick me." He says.
"Huh well okay then" I laugh.
"Unless you guys secretly are?" He says.
"No" I say
"You sure?" He asks. Wow he's making a big deal about this.
"Why do you care jack?" Gilinsky says.
"I don't I was just asking" johnson says.
*jack gilinskys pov*
I got a text and looked at my phone.
Nate: yo Lilly knows that johnson likes her😏😏
I read the text and looked at Lilly, she saw me smirking and gave me a confused look.
I texted her.
J- so you know?😏😉
Lilly🍕: yeah...
J- get it gurllll😎
She laughed at my text.
"What are ya laughing at?" Johnson asks.
"Nothing" Lilly says.
Lilly🍕: YOURE GUNNA GET ME CAUGHT YOU IDIOT!!
J- whoops👐
Lilly🍕: and I don't want to 'get it' I don't like him like that!!
J- stop lying you know you do😏
Lilly🍕: idk..it's just like we've been friends for so long it'd be weird if we dated..
J- oh my god how long will it take you guys to finally get together?!
Lilly🍕: shut up gilinsky😛
*lillys pov*
How annoying could gilinsky get? Very. Very very annoying.
"Jackkkk" I say
"What" they both say and I laugh.
"Blondie let's get movies" I say.
"Okay" he agrees.
We go out to his car and get in.
*jack Johnson's pov*
I get in the car and right as I start it I get a text from gilinsky and hand my phone to Lilly.
"What'd he say?" I ask pulling out of the driveway.
She read the text and looked up at me, she looked mad.
"Um he just said to make sure to pick up a movie for him" she says and I nod.
*lillys pov*
I looked at jacks phone.
Gilinsky: dude so Lilly likes you😏 make your move boy!
I looked at the text and got mad, this is why I don't tell him anything.
"What'd he say?" Johnson asks me.
"Um he just said to make sure to pick up a movie for him" I lie.
He nods and I text back.
J- asshole.
Gilinsky: huh?
J- this is Lilly you idiot.
Gilinsky: oh..
J- hate you.
Gilinsky: love you💗
We got to the movie store and I set his phone down, I'll just delete the messages when we get back. We go inside and look through the movies. "Let's get the one direction movie!!" I say excitedly.
"Do I have a choice?" He sighed.
"Nope" I laugh and grab the movie.
We went through and picked out 7 movies and went to buy them.
"Good luck man" the guy ringing us up laughs as he charges us for the one direction movie.
"With this one I'll need it" johnson says and I hit his arm.
"Here you go have a nice day" the man says and we leave.
We get in the car and drive back.
*jack Johnson's pov*
We got back to the house and went inside.
"One direction first!!" Lilly yells and goes to put the movie in.
I take out my phone while I wait and see a text from gilinsky saying love you which confused me. I clicked on the messages and read through. Lilly likes me?.. I am now officially confused.
She sits by me and the movie starts.
"Who's your favorite?!" She asks me and I laugh.
"The Louis one" I say and her mouth drops.
"What?" I ask.
"It's pronounced Lou-ee" she says.
"Okay well my fav is LOU-EE" I say.
"My favorite is harry, his curls are life" she laughs.
I wasn't really paying attention to the movie, yet I never really do. I get entertained by lillys laugh when were watching a comedy or comforting her when she's crying at a sad one. Or in this case laughing at how much of an over-reactor she is.
She started singing to one thing and dancing around and I couldn't stop laughing.
"You're so weird!" I laugh
"Don't act like you don't love it" she says.
After a few more movies she got up.
"Nates here to pick me up, see you later" she says and hugs me goodbye.
*lillys pov*
I said goodbye to Johnson and went outside.
"So why are you picking me up?" I ask as I get in the car and shut the door.
"Your parents are going on a late night business trip and Sam said you would want to stay with us" he says not looking away from the road.
"Why does he make every decision for me?" I say.
"You don't wanna stay the night with us?" He laughs.
"No I honestly don't care" I say.
Most parents don't let their daughter stay the night at a guys house, but Sam was there for one and Nate and I have been friends for a really long time.
I've never stayed with Johnson though, only for the reason that I can't trust gilinsky to not draw crap on my face or throw me out the window in my sleep.
We get to nates house and go inside.
I go straight to the extra room that I stay in Everytime I come here.
I started to feel upset, for what? I have no idea.
I sat there staring at the wall as thoughts plunged into my head. I started to cry.
And it was happening again.
I started to hyperventilate, and I couldn't keep it quiet. Next thing I know nate is coming through the door.
"Calm down lilly" he says sitting next to me.
"Get your breathing right" he says. But I couldn't. He sat with me until my panic attack was over 8 minuets later.
"Are you okay?" He asks.
"Yeah" I say trying to catch my breath.
"Where's Sam?" I ask.
"He went to go do a few things" he responds.
"okay" I say
"Do you need anything?" He asks.
"No..I'm fine" I say and lay my head on his shoulder.
"You don't deserve this.." He says hugging me.
"I'm exhausted now" I say
"I'll let you take a nap" he says hugging me once more and leaving the room. And I fall asleep.