My Only Hope

Chapter 31

*lillys pov*
*4 months later*
Lately I've been talking to this guy named Jacob. His personality reminded me of cameron which was depressing and lovely all at the same time. It was nice to have a friend that didn't know about all the crap in my life.
Today we were going to get our dress fitting, everything with the wedding going on kinda kept me distracted.
I was waiting for sadie and he sisters to come pick me up and I was talking to Jacob.
Jacob: so what are you doing today??
Me: going for a dress fitting for my friends wedding.
Jacob: that must be fun
Me: not really honestly..
Jacob: why not?
Me: it just kinda reminds me of things.
Jacob: oh well try to have fun okay!
Me: I'll try :p
I've had very few Internet friends in the past but none of them actually cared about me as much as Jacob does.
And honestly I felt bad about lying saying I had a boyfriend and a perfect relationship.
I heard sadies car and went outside and got in. "Hey" I say as she pulls out.
"Hey those are my sisters Emily and stella the nice ones" she laughs. Emily looked about 15 and stella looked 14.
We get to the dress shop and meet with the lady that will be helping us.
"I'm Regina" she smiles shaking all of our hands. We go to our dressing room and sadie shows us the dresses.
"Oh my god their gorgeous" I say
"And no need to look at the price tags their paid for" she says.
Her two sisters had lavender cocktail dresses with a teal pull in at the waist and flats.
Mine was a long lavender dress that had little lifts throughout the skirt and a sweetheart neckline with gorgeous black pumps.
"I knew there would be no way of making you wear a long dress without heels" she laughs.
"It's beautiful sadie!" I say.
"You guys ready to see my dress?" She asks. She decided to pick out her dress herself because she didn't want people to change her opinion based on what they want her to wear.
She goes in the dressing room and comes out In a gorgeous fit and flare dress by pnina tornai. It was simple yet gorgeous and it looked gorgeous on her. (The dress in the picture above)
"It's beautiful!" Emily says.
"It's amazing!" I say.
"Do you think Jack will like it?" She asks
"Jack will love it" I say
I go in to try on mine to make sure it fit. I put it on and it fit perfectly once I put on the heels. I just had to take a mirror selfie in it.
I walk out and sadie gasps.
"It looks perfect!" She cheers.
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*camerons pov*
Sadie and Jacob, me? I never know how to say it. Have talked a lot lately. She keeps her distance because, well she thinks she doesn't know me.
I went to her page and saw that she posted a picture. It was her in a pale lavender long dress and her favorite thing to wear, black pumps.
I remember how she would always complain about how uncomfortable they are, but she liked them cause she felt almost as tall as me. I missed little things like that. Or when I'd have to get things off the top shelves for her, or when she'd tighten her grip on my hand when we past a big group of people.. I started to feel sick. And not sick as I have a fever. But sick as in sadness. God if I feel like this I can't even begin to imagine how she feels.
Then I thought back to when I last saw her.
The last thing I said to her before I left was whatever lilly.
I'm such an idiot.
I need to get rid of mandy.
*lillys pov*
Since we did dress fittings yesterday, we had nothing to do today. I called nate and asked him if we could go to the beach. He should be here any minuet. The beach is a calm place for me, the silence of the waves makes me feel better. And nate is great with making me feel better too.
I hear his car outside and go out and get in.
We get to the beach and it was winter so it wasn't the hottest but it wasn't cold and wet.
We sit on a log and talk.
"What's wrong?" He asks.
"It's just, with Jack and sadie having carson and having this wedding it- it makes me think, what me and cameron could have had" I say sadly. "And I can't do anything about it I can't talk to him I've made up this whole thing in my head that he was threatened or kidnapped or something and that he will come back for me but it all could just be me being too hopeful and I'm trying so hard not to break down right now" I say starting to cry.
"Hey it's okay. Even if cameron doesn't come back, there's other people out there" he says.
"I only want cameron" I say
"Are you sure?" He asks leaning in and I knew where this was going but something inside me snapped. How could cameron do this to me? Why did he do this to me? My thoughts got interrupted by Nates lips on mine. I kissed back for a split second before pushing him away and standing up.
"I'm meant to be with cameron, sorry nate" I say.
"Seriously?! You liked me just a year ago and now that's just gone? And you still want that guy after how he treated you?!" He says standing up too.
"He sure as hell didn't slam me against a door" I say walking away.
Once nate was out of sight I just stopped and stared out into the sea.
I was in tears, and the worst of it is, cameron is usually here to help me. If he were here he'd just hold me and not say a word. But no. He's not here. I'm never going to see him again. I sat down and just started bawling. At this point I felt as if I'd never be happy again.
Once I calmed down I called sam to come pick me up.
I waited and saw his car pull up. I got in and he looks at me for a second.
"Why are you crying?" He asks. Seeing my red puffy eyes.
"I tried just talking about cameron to nate and then nate kissed me!" I say
"What did you do?" He asks
"I kissed back for an actual split second and pushed him away and told him I was meant to be with cameron and he blew up on me" I say.
"Okay, let's go home" he says