I wake up and check my phone it was 6pm. I get up and walk downstairs to see nate and Sam sitting on the couch.
"Hey" I say quietly and sit down.
"You feelin better?" Nate asks and I nod.
I got on my phone and went on facebook..
And saw something I didn't think I'd see.
Jack gilinsky
They're the cutest
Picture of johnson kissing a girl
Picture of johnson hugging a girl.
And it wasn't until now that I've realized I really do like him.
He said he liked me..so why is he with her?
Was he just lying?
You can't fall for your best friend Lilly.
But am I falling for him because I like him or because I'm just jealous of that girl.
I mean she's way prettier than me, defiantly a lot skinnier. She has longer blonde hair that was straight and a prettier smile.
I continued to point out all the things she had that I didn't to myself.
I decided to text him.
L- congrats johnson!:) I saw the pics, so happy for you🎉
I should be happy for him right? I mean I am his best friend.
I didn't get a text back for a while so I locked my phone. And of course, the guys could tell something was wrong with me.
"What's wrong?" Sam asks.
"Nothing" I say quietly.
"Lilly I know when your sad, you get the same expression everytime, so you might as well tell me" he says
"I can't tell you but I can tell nate" I say not wanting Sam to know.
"Fineee" he groans and me and nate go upstairs.
"I didn't think I actually liked johnson" I begin to explain. "But I do" I admit
"I saw the pictures gilinsky posted of him kissing some chick who's 500x better than me" I say.
"No one is 500x better than you, Lilly. No ones even close" he says.
"I thought he said he liked me.." I say getting kinda sad.
"I don't know what is up with him.." Nate says. We just kinda sat there for a minuet. Until Nate started leaning in...
I didn't think, I just leaned in yes well and we kissed. A some what short sweet kiss, and pulled away.
"Forget him" nate says to me and Sammy walks in.
"You guys done talking yet?" He asks.
"Yep" I say awkwardly and we walk out of the room.
I sat next to nate on the couch and got a text from johnson, I was hesitant to open it but I did anyways.
Johnson🙈🙊: oh, thanks😊💕
I cringed at the message. How can he say he likes one girl one day and be kissing a different one the next, I mean, I always thought he was different from most guys.
Nate was on snapchat and he posted a pic of me kissing his cheek. At first I started to worry that johnson would see it but who gives a crap. If he can post pictures kissing a girl he just met I can post pictures kissing a guy I've known for years.
I went on my snapchat and screenshotted the picture and made it my profile picture on my facebook and twitter.
As always I always got tweets from girls around my neighborhood saying that I need to back off, they assumed that since they were all cheerleaders that my friends and brother would be all over them. I went off twitter and went on facebook. My picture already had 30 likes in a few minuets. And a bunch of comments asking if we were dating.
'No guys, were not dating.' I press comment and lock my phone.
We hang out and watch YouTube until 1 am.
"I'm hungry" I complain.
"Taco Bell?" Nate says.
"Yasss" I say.
I look to Sam and see that he's asleep so we go without him.
We get in his car and drive off.
After a few minuets of driving I get a text.
Samuel😎: where the hell are you?!
L- we just went to Taco Bell calm down
Samuel😎: oh okay
I laugh and lock my phone as we pull in the taco bell drive thru.
nate orders our usual and we drive forward and wait.
I go on snapchat and have a few from johnson.
Him, kissing the stupid chick.
Nate saw and sighed.
"Sometimes Johnson's a real douche" he says.
"Yeah..." I say.
We get out food and drive out.
"Let's go somewhere" nate says pulling out of Taco Bell
"Like where?" I ask.
"Don't know" he says and we start driving away from the house.
I loved hanging out with Johnson's and everything, but nate was much more adventurous, he liked trying new things and discovering new places, where as with johnson we have the same routine constantly, same hang out places, same restraunts, same music, everything.
We drive up a few hills and park in front of a lake.
"Well I guess we will stop here" he says and we get out and sit on the trunk of his car eating out Taco Bell.
I took a few snapchats and out them In my story.
I went over to the lake and was taking a nice snapchat video until nate pushes me in, lucky for him I had my waterproof case on.
"Nate I hate you !" I yell and he laughs I grab his hand and pull him in.
"If I'm going down you're going down with me!" I yell splashing him with water.
"Calm youself wilk" he laughs standing up and helping me up, walking over to his car. I take a snapchat of me doing a pout face and right as I take it nate kisses my cheek. We tend to do this a lot as Photo bombing but everyone always pushed it farther than it needed to go.
We get back in the car to drive back and I got a text.
Johnson🙈🙊: where are you and why are you out so late?!!!
I showed Nate the text at a stop light and he rolled his eyes.
L- I'm with nate I'm fine.
Johnson🙈🙊: you're fine cause you're with nate?? He's the one who will get you in trouble!
L-you're worse than Sam, jack! I can't do anything fun because everyone thinks I'm too immature and will end up dead or something! Why can you just trust me to be mature like gilinsky and Sam do?
Johnson🙈🙊: it's not that I don't trust you it's that I don't trust nate.
L- why? Nate and I have been friends for years and you're just now having a problem with it?
Johnson🙈🙊: I'm just trying to keep you from getting hurt.
L- you're the one who hurt me, jack.
I can't believe I just sent that...
Johnson🙈🙊: what?? How?
L- forget it.
I lock my phone and we pull in the driveway. I was so angry with him.
"What's wrong Lilly?" Nate asks shutting the front door.
"Johnson's being so ridiculous!! He's more protective than Sam! He's acting and treating me like I'm an immature 14 year old." I say.
"something's up with him.." He says.
"Yeah well, I'm going to sleep, night maloley" it say and go upstairs.
*nates pov*I texted johnson.
N- yo why you being so rude to Lilly?
JackJ: don't know what you're talking about.
N- you know what I'm freaking talking about, treating her bad, acting like your in charge of her and making her feel like a little kid, not to mention all those kissing pics you sent her of you and that hoe.
JackJ: okay I'm just trying to look out for her, and why would she care if I was kissing that 'hoe' who's name is Melissa.
n- because she liked you and you sent those and upset her. You made her think you liked her and got with another girl.
JackJ: whatever she'll get over it.
N- or she'll get over you.
JackJ: what is that suppose to mean?.
N- that she will completely be over you, she'll move on to someone better. And you'll see what you missed once she's with someone else.
JackJ: and how will that happen? She is my friend. And all but she's not the best lookin thing there is in Omaha.
N- wow you really just got that low..
JackJ: don't act like you'd choose her over a Victoria's Secret model.
I locked my phone and ignored him, he made me so angry I wanted to punch the wall. But I had to control my anger, breaking things won't fix anything. Maybe help me in the moment but later will just be an annoyance.
I fell asleep after I calmed down.
(REAAAALLLLLYYYY short chapter but I thought I'd just get something up:)
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My Only Hope
RomanceLilly wilkinson is a 16 year old girl who suffers with anxiety, depression, and panic attacks. She refuses to tell anyone besides her brother, Sam. But what happens when her best friend finds out? Will she tell everyone or keep it a secret? What hap...