My Only Hope

Chapter 12

I woke up at 2 am. I couldn't go back to sleep for the life of me so I grabbed my phone and went on tumblr.
And obviously I was stalking on the Luke hemmings accounts.
I was reblogging a ton of pictures until I got a text.
Johnson🙈🙊: why are you awake and why are you spamming my tumblr with pictures of boys?
L- I'm awake because I can't go back to sleep, and it's Luke hemmings.
Johnson🙈🙊: you're suppose to be like all these girls from school and reblog my pictures😔
L- you want me to also flirt with you obnoxiously and act like a slut?
Johnson🙈🙊: not saying I'd hate it.
L- goodnight, jack.
I locked my phone and went back to sleep.
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I woke up again at 10 am, the usual time I woke up.
I checked my phone.
Johnson🙈🙊: be ready at 1 were going to the pier with Sam and jack.
I texted back with a simple k and basil walked in.
"Hi baby" I say petting her head and she purred.
I went downstairs and basil followed close behind, when is got downstairs the only ones down there were Sam and my dad.
I poured food into basils food bowl and sat at the island.
"What are you doing today sweety?" My dad asks.
"Going to the pier with Sam and the jacks I guess" I say.
"I don't like you being with that johnson kid so much" he says and I roll my eyes.
"Dad if you should be worried about anyone it should be gilinsky" I laugh.
"Why what does he do? Is he a male stripper? Porn star?" He says listing the things he could be.
"No" I laugh.
"Sam you watch your sister" he says.
"I do" Sam responds.
"I gotta get to work, love you" my dad says kissing my cheek and leaving.
"He doesn't care about you being around girls but he's so strict about me with johnson it's ridiculous." I say.
"It's because you're the girl." Sam says.
"But I'm smarter than you" I say completely serious.
"Maybe with school but not with relationships" he says.
"You're saying that because you've had more girlfriends than I've had boyfriends but that just makes you a whore" I smile at him.
"I'm not a whore!" He says offended.
"Yeah keep telling yourself that" I laugh and go upstairs.
I put on my getting ready playlist and blasted it on my speaker.
I sang along to go go go by sleeping with sirens while I looked through my closet. I grabbed a 5sos shirt and pt it on with ripped black jeans and boots.
I plugged in my wand and brushed my teeth while I waited for it to heat up. Once I was done I did my whole had with the wand and brushed through it to make curly waves.
I did some makeup carefully to cover up any bruises or scratches and went back downstairs.
"Ready to go?" Sam asks me.
"Yeah" I say and we go out to his car, and drove to the pier.
"Sam can you please be a cool brother and let me hang out with johnson alone?" I ask.
"Yeah whatever" he says.
"If you act stuck up I'm gunna call you samuel" I say.
"You have a death wish don't you?" He says to me as we pull in to the pier.
"Guess so" I say.
We get out of the car and Sam texts them asking where they were.
"C'mon their by the coffee shop" Sam says.
We walk a few blocks to the coffee shop and see them outside the door.
"Hey" I say to them.
"Well Lilly get out of here I mean you practically begged me to leave you and jack alone" Sam says smiling at me and I give him a death glare.
Me and johnson walk off from jack and Sam.
"So you wanted to be alone with me sooooo bad" jack says emphasizing the so.
"Shut up jack" I say.
"Oh Sam please let me be alone with jack I love him so much" johnson says trying to mimic my voice.
"I didn't say that and I don't sound like that" I say.
"C'mon you know I'm joking" he laughs putting his arm around me.
We keep walking and I see nate towards the right of us on his phone by himself.
"Hey can we go to that little dress shop I like?" I say to jack so we could head in nates direction.
"Yeah" he says and we turn right.
We walk and run right into nate.
"Oh uh hey lilly" he smiles at me.
"Hi" I smile.
I wanted to get our friendship back to normal. I missed it a lot. Even though we never hung out as much as me and jack we still had a ton of fun when we did.
"How've you been" he asks.
"Fine" I say awkwardly. It's like everything we've ever been in the past few years were thrown away, like we were starting over and I hated it.
"I'll text you I gotta go meet with some friends" he says and I nod as he walks past me.
"Awkward" jacks says and I nod. "Very"
we get to my favorite dress shop and go inside.
"Hi can I help you" the lady working asks.
"No just looking" I smile and continue looking through the dresses. I stopped at one that was a light baby blue that was form fitting and ended a few in she's above the knee. It had darker blue detailing and was gorgeous.
"I'm so trying this on" I say grabbing it and taking it in the dressing room.
"Let me see" I hear jack say from outside the dressing room. I zip up the back and look in the mirror. The light baby blue really complimented my pale skin and the cut of it made my legs look nice. I open the door and show jack.
"Nice color, makes your butt look good" he winks and I give him a smile-glare.
"Okay other than my butt does it look okay?" I ask.
"You look great" he smiles and I go back into the dressing room and put my clothes back on.
I come out and buy the dress.
"You looked freaking hot in that dress" jack winks at me.
"Okay just because I'm into you doesn't mean you can start telling me how great my butt looks" I laugh.
"Oh so you're into me?" He says and I mentally face palm.
"Don't get too excited johnson" I say and we keep walking down the road.
"Wanna go to the bakery and get cupcakes?" He asks me.
"Yeah" I say and we walk to the bakery.
I get a red velvet whipped frosting and jack gets a vanilla coffee one. We both got coffee too.
We sit at a table and I take a picture of mine before I eat it.
"Woah miss Instagram right here" he says taking a bite of his cupcake.
"No I'm snapchatting it to Sam to make him mad" I smile.
"And why do you want to make Sam mad?" He asks.
"Because I'm his little sister and that's reason enough" I say.
"Why do I like you?" He questions me.
"Oh so you like me?" I laugh slightly.
"Quit trying to pull a johnson" he says and I take a bite of my cupcake.
"Yeah yeah" I smile.
We were there for about 30 minuets just talking until I look out the window and see Sam talking to some girl.
He was laughing and looked super happy.
"Jack look" I say
"Oh my god" he laughs. "He so likes her"
"How do you know?" I ask.
"He's acting the same way I do around you" he says smiling at me.
I blushed and covered it with my hands.
"C'mon Lilly" jack says laughing at me.
"Shush jack" I say.
We get up and go out of the bakery.
"Hey sam" I say and he turns to me and instantly looks completely awkward.
"You'll be home after the gym right?" I say even though I knew he never really went to the gym, but I knew that'd get him major points considering the girl was wearing workout shorts and tank top.
"Um yeah" he says and winks at me mouthing a thanks.
"Okay see you later" I say and drag johnson away.
"Wow so you don't always hate Sam?" Jack asks gasping.
"I love Sam, but of course I'm goin to annoy him once in a while" I say.
"I guess" he says
"Where's gilinsky?" I ask.
I call him and he answers.
G- hey Lilly
L-'hey where are you why aren't you with Sam?
G- well he ditched me for some girl so I'm Tryna find someone
L- just because Sam found a girl doesn't mean you need to
G-in your world Lilly
L- does everything have to be a competition?
G- yes Lilly, yes it does.
L- whatever later loser
G- feeling the love.
I laugh and hang up.
I see gilinsky on the board walk talking to a group of girls and I laugh.
"Let's go embarrass him" I say.
"Lilly." Johnson warns.
"Fine!" I say.
"Doesn't mean we can't go over there" he says and we walk down there.
"Hey jack" I say and he gives me a look as in 'I swear if you ruin this I will kill you'
I know because I've had this look MANY times before.
"Hey guys uh this is jazzy, and Sadie" he says and I smile at them. Sadie seemed really sweet and really into gilinsky.
But jazzy was staring down johnson like he was a 1000 dollar Starbucks card sitting in the middle of an empty road.
"Hey I'm jazzy" she says to johnson locking out her boobs and pucking her lips out.
"I'm jack" johnson says.
"What's your name?" Sadie smiled at me. She was really pretty. She has orangey toned hair and big blue eyes, she was a bit short but taller than me.
"I'm lilly" I say.
"Nice to meet you" she says.
I would love jazzy to introduce herself but she was too busy drooling over johnson.
"Well jack maybe we should go?" I say.
"Aw c'mon guys leaving so soon?" Jazzy says trying to act innocent.
"Yeah hang out with us" Sadie says. I had no problem hanging out with her but I couldn't stand jazzy and I just met her a minuet ago.
"Okay" I say grabbing Johnson's hand which he didn't take for surprise considering we held hands even when we were just friends, even though we still are titled friends it's different now.
We started to walk and jazzy was all over johnson, asking his personal questions, keeping his attention. She grabbed onto his arm and kept his eyes on her. Eventually he let go of my hand and completely forgot I was there. Not even Sadie was on gilinsky like that. I sighed quietly but gilinsky heard me. He looked from me to johnson.
"Excuse me for a sec" he says to Sadie and she nods with her signature smile as gilinsky pulls me ahead of them.
He puts his arm around my waist and smiles at me.
"What are you doing?" I laugh at him.
"Showing jack how stupid he is" he laughs back.
"Don't put off the wrong impression to sadie" I say.
"My friends come before a girlfriend" he says. (If only he was like this irl whoops)
obviously johnson noticed what a 'great' time me and gilinsky were having because he gabbed my hand, pulling me from gilinsky and giving him a death glare.
"What the hell was that?" He whispers as we keep walking.
"I don't know, maybe you were too busy with your little girlfriend" I whisper back.
"You can't expect me to just not talk to other girls" he says.
"I'm not saying I expect you to not talk to other girls, I'm saying I expect you to not ignore me to flirt with other girls." I say.
"What ever your too touchy and sensitive to do anything" he raises his voice at me walking away and of course the little tramp jazzy walked after him.
"What just happened" I say more to my self rather than gilinsky and Sadie.
"He's just mad you just gotta let him cool down" jack says to me.
"He's mad? A good boyfriend doesn't flirt with other girls!" I say angrily.
"He's your boyfriend?" Sadie says.
"No, yeah, it's I don't know. Kinda" I say.
"I'm sorry" she frowns at me.
"Was jazzy your friend?" I ask.
"No she's my devil of a sister" Sadie rolls her eyes.
"Oh my god I'm sorry you have to live with that" I laugh.
"I'm sorry she's made you and jack get in this fight" she sighs.
"It's fine" I say.
"Hey c'mon let's go back, and if jack comes we can smash a ton of crap on his head" gilinsky says and me and Sadie laugh.
"Good idea" I say and we walk back to the car.
As we got back I got a text.
Samuel😎: since you played that whole gym gig she is having me go to the gym with her tonight thanks 😒😒
L- you could loose some chub a lub.
Samuel😎: 😠😠
We get in the car and drive back to jacks house. We go inside and Sadie looks around before sitting down.
"Nice place" she smiles at jack.
"Thanks" he says.
"So how do you guys know eachother?" She asks me.
"Since 7th grade for me, through my brother" I say.
"Cool" she says.
"I'll be back" jack says leaving the room.
"Lilly can I ask you something?" Sadie says.
"Sure" I say.
"I've never really had a boyfriend, weird I know, but I kinda like jack" she says and I get excited.
"It's not weird and he so likes you too" I say.
"How do you know?" She asks.
"Uh, johnson said he knew because gilinsky looks at you the way johnson looks at me" I say awkwardly.
"I'm sorry about tonight" she says hugging me, I hug her back. It felt nice to have a girl to talk to.
"I leave for 5 minuets and you guys are best friends" gilinsky says walking down the stairs and I laugh a little.
"God for all I know jack could be with her right now" I say.
"He's not going to do that to you lilly" jack says.
"He did that with that last girl" I say.
"This is your anxiety talking" he whispers to me. "Don't listen" he hugs me.
"Thanks jack, but I can't help but worry" I say.
"Call him" Sadie says to me.
"Call him?" I question,
"Yeah, I mean instead of worrying just call and see what's up" she says.
"Okay" I say and dial his number.
J-hey Lilly..
L- hey, can we talk like...what even happend?" I ask walking out the door so our conversation could be private.
J- look I know I was kinda flirting with jazzy and it not my fault, I couldn't help myself.
L- so what you find her attractive or something?
J- I mean, kinda.
L- okay..
Jack where'd you go
I hear jazzy say in the back ground.
L- so you're with her?
J- yeah is that a problem?
L- no no have fun
J- you sure? You're not mad?
L- no I'm fine and yeah I'm just with jack and Sadie
J- okay see you later?
L- maybe, bye jack.
I hang up the phone more upset than angry. I walk inside.
"How'd it go?" Sadie asks.
"He finds her attractive and admitted it. He also is hanging out with her right now..." I say.
"You're kidding right?" Jack says.
"Nope.." I say plopping down on the couch.
"Does he really think this is okay?" Sadie says.
"Well I mean were not dating or anything, I guess he just doesn't want to be in a relationship" I say.
"What'd you say?" Sadie asks.
"I said I was fine with it and he said see you later and I said maybe." I say.
Gilinsky takes out his phone and calls a number.
"Who are you calling?" I ask making sure it wasn't johnson.
"Hey come over" gilinsky says into the phone and hangs up. I give him a confused look.
"Nates coming over I know I don't want you seeing him but you need it right now" jack says and I smile.
After a good 10 minuets we hear a knock on the door.
"Hey what's up?" Nate asks walking in and he sees me.
"Lilly needed you" gilinsky says sitting back down and nate sits next to me.
"What's wrong lil mama?" He asks. (Had to)
"I'm fine" I say.
"Jack called another girl attractive and flirted with her and is hanging out with her" jack says and I roll my eyes.
"That ass" I hear nate mutter under his breath and I laugh a bit.
"No I'm just stupid for thinking we were actually going somewhere" I say and the door opens to see a jack johnson walk in with a bouquet of flowers and a dominos pizza box.
We walks over to me and hand me the flowers and pizza.
"I'm sorry for being a huge jerk to you earlier, do you forgive me?" He says in the sweetest voice ever and I died that very second.
"I forgive you" I smile and he kisses me.
"And yes there are three more pizzas in the car for everyone else" johnson says and gilinsky and nate rush out to get the pizzas.
"But Lilly I really am sorry" he says sitting next to me, putting his arm around me.
"It's fine" I say. "Thankyou for the flowers" I smile smellin the pink roses he had gotten for me.
The guys walk in and sit on the couches.
"You guys are cute" Sadie says which brought a huge smile to my face.
"You and jack are cute" I mouthed to her and she laughed.
"I don't understand girl code what is this language" gilinsky asks.
"None of your business finnegan" I say.
"Not this again!" He laughs.
I used to always call gilinsky finnegan and johnson edward.
"Shush finnegan" I say.
"Gilinsky actually let nate in the house?!" Johnson says sarcastically.
"I wouldn't have if you would have gotten your little sorry ass over here sooner" gilinsky says.
"Guys come on me and Lilly made up its fine" nate says.
"Doesn't mean we have" gilinsky says.
"Why are you so protective over Lilly doesn't johnson do that enough?" Nate asks.
"Can we just have a nice evening please?" I say.
"Yeah guys come on" Sadie helps me out.
"Fine" gilinsky groans like a little child which causes me to laugh.
After we finished all the pizza the door opens and we see a sweaty and heavy breathing Sammy walk in.
"Hey" I laugh slightly.
"Why did you have to bring up the gym lilly?" He groans laying on the floor.
"Hey maybe she'll motivate you to get in shape" I say.
"I think I'm dead" he says sitting up. "Wait" he stops smelling the air. "Pizza!" He yells.
"It's all gone" I say gesturing to the empty pizza boxes.
"I hate my life!" He yells hitting the floor.
"Wait there is still some pizza left" I say.
"Where?!" He asks excitedly I ran up to him and burped in his face and ran back to the couch.
"Protect me!" I yell hiding behind the guys.
Sam came up and grabbed me stuffing my face in his underarm.
"Ew Sam you're disgusting!" I yell pushing him off me and he laughs.
"You guys are douche bags" I say pouting at jack jack and nate.
"Why isn't Sadie in trouble too?" Gilinsky complains.
"Because I didn't go hide behind her and yell protect me I though I made myself pretty clear!" I explain.
"Sorry babe" johnson says with his signature smile.
"I'm angry with you" I say sitting on the opposite side of the room.
"Come on Lillian" he says and I glare at him.
"No" I say.
Sadie laughed at our stupidity and gilinsky got up and sat by Her.
"You're cute" he says with a cheesy smile.
"You guys just met and you're cuter than me and jack" I complain.
"No sir" johnson says.
"Yes sir" I cross my arms.
"I'm pretty sure the fact that you guys just called eachother sir makes you guys the cutest things ever" Sadie says which makes me smile.
"Come on" johnson says coming over to me and grabbing my hand, pulling me up. "Were gunna go get food you guys want anything?" He asks the guys.
"Get the usual Taco Bell order" Sam says.
We leave and get in his car and drive.
"We just passed taco bell" I point out.
"I know I just needed an excuse to be alone with you" he says smiling but keeping his eyes on the road.
"You're cute" I say.
"Lilly I am 18" he says
"Doesn't matter you still have a baby face" I say.
"Whatever" he laughs.
"So where are we going" I ask
"Don't know" he says.
I cheak my phone.
Samuel😎: where my Taco Bell fool?!
L- um about that...
Samuel😎: 😠😠
We stopped in this little place where trees surrounded us and we could see the moon and stars and it was lovely.
We got out and layed on the grass next to eachother.
"This is weird" johnson laughs.
"How?" I ask.
"This is like one of those scenes out of those romance movies you watch" he smiles.
"It's not a bad thing" I say.
He looks at me.
"Not at all"
( oh my goodness I finally finished the chapter!!!! Btw does anyone ship #jadie??)