My Only Hope

Chapter 30

I had sam take me to drop the box off coldat the post office. It had their old address on it but I doubt they lived there anymore.
*camerons pov*
*flashback*
Lilly and I were headed to the dinner party for her dad. I honestly didn't want to go but I went for lilly. We got in and shook a few hands before I saw jenna and Mandy. Ew.
"Hey cameron!" Mandy says.
"Hi mandy" I say and introduce lilly.* end of flash back.
I was stupid.
I shouldn't have done that.
6 years ago, when she found out I was dating Cassie, lead her to suicide. I wasn't going to put lilly through that. Ever.
*one week later*
I had changed my number and fully moved into a house. Mandy promised if I leave lilly then she won't mess with her. So.... That's what I did. I did once in a while go back to my old house to see if lilly sent that box.
I've also had to avoid being seen by lillys parents.
I've been way depressed since we moved in. I don't go anywhere unless it's to see if the box came.
It was early and the man that lives in that house was gone for work. I pulled my hoodie tight to me so no one could see my face. I saw the box on the door step and ran to it and grabbed it. I went back to my cat and drove home.
"Nash dude she sent it!" I yell walking in.
"Wait seriously?" He says.
"Yeah" I say sitting down and opening it. We open it and there was a note on top.
" Cam,
You broke my heart. A week before our one year. I saw the rest of my life with you. I saw us getting married and having kids. but you didn't ruin that.
Something happened I can feel it.
I'll be here. Waiting. I'll see you soon.
I love you cameron. So much."
I cried a little at the note.
"She realized something was up" nash says
"I need to go back, I wish I could go back" I say
"You can though" nash says.
"And let what happened to Cassie happen to her?!" I say
"Can't we just murder Mandy?" He asks
"I wish"
*lillys pov*
I've been way too depressed the last week. I barely left my room let alone are or took a shower. Nate, the jacks, and sadie have tried to come see me many times but I wasn't up to it. I barely talk to sam. He tried several times a day to talk to me but I rarely would.
Today was yet again another day in my room listening to depressing music crying once in a while.
There was a knock on my door.
"No Sam I don't want anything to eat" I say.
"It's nate" he says.
"I don't want to talk" I say
"Cmon I haven't gotten to see you all week. Please let me in" he says
"Nope" I say. It was silent.
5 minuets pass and I hear my window open.
"Hey what's up" nate says climbing in my room.
"Really nate" I groan.
He just sat down next to me and hugged me.
"Im not giving up on him" I say
"What do you mean?" He asks
"Cameron will be back"
"Lilly..."
"He will be back" I say
"You can't just sit here the rest of your life waiting for someone" he says
"You can if you truly love them" I say.
"And I love cameron" I finish.
"Lilly you ready to eat?" I hear sam outside my room.
"No but if you could get nate out that'd be great" I say opening the door.
"How'd you get in?" Sam asks
"Window"
"Ah smart thinking" Sam says
"Get out!" I say
"Okay okay I'm going" nate laughs.
*sadies pov*
I've gone and tried to see lilly everyday. I wasn't even mad at cameron. I was just overall disappointed in him.
Carson was 3 weeks old and me and jack decided to take another nighty out. We asked johnson to watch her for the night which he gladly said he would do.
"Thank you for watching her" I say to johnson.
"No problem have fun guys" he says and we leave.
"So where are we going?" I ask Jack.
"You'll see" he says. It was 6pm and we were driving to God knows where. We get to the pier and Jack parks the car.
"How about he forget that were parents now and go get some pizza and ice cream?" He smiles.
"This is why I love you" I say and we get out of the car.
We go into the pizza parlor and get a pepperoni pizza. We sit down and eat it taking plenty of snapchats in between.
we get to the ice cream place and get our usual. Vanilla bean with coconut and chocolate.
After we finish our ice cream we decide to take a walk down the pier.
"This is exactly where we met" Jack smiles at me.
"How do you know?" I ask
"because I can't forget where I was on the best day of my life" he says
"Aw jack" I say
"And I want this spot to continue to be where the best day of my life is." He says which confused me.
"I love you so much sadie, we've been through so much together, we have a baby together, we are meant for eachother" he starts getting down on one knee pulling out a box. I knew where this was going and I started to tear up.
"I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Will you marry me?" He asks.
"Yes Jack of course" I say and he stands up and hugs me tight slipping the ring on my finger.
"I love you so much" I say with tears and kissing him.
"I love you too" he says hugging me once more.
*lillys pov*
My phone buzzed and I instantly grabbed it. I kept thinking it wouldn't be cameron but it never was.
Sadieee: please come over tomorrow, I have BIG news. And carson misses you also!
I read the text a few times thinking of what the big news could be. And honestly I'm pretty curious. You know what, I need out of this house or I'll never feel better.
L- I'll be there
Sadieee: wait seriously?! Great!
I laugh at her text and set my phone down. I quietly open the door and walk downstairs. Sam was sitting there on his phone.
"Hi" I say sitting next to him and he just hugged me.
"You can't spend the rest of your life in your room" he says
"I know, I told sadie I'd come over tomorrow" I say.
"Gilinsky asked me to come over tomorrow to tell me some big news" he says.
"Another baby?!" I say
"Let's hope not" he laughs.
~~~~~~~
Today was my first time actually getting ready since... Everything.
I put on my favorite teal dress. It had thick straps and was a fit and flare that cut off at my mid knee. I put on white sandals and curled the ends of my hair and did my makeup. I actually looked pretty good so I took a selfie and posted it. My timeline has been filled with mostly depressing posts lately.
I walk downstairs and sam smiles at me. "It's nice to see you in actual clothes rather than your pajamas" he laughs.
"Shush lets go" I say. We go out to the car and drove to Jack and Sadies house. We et there and everyone. And by everyone I mean EVERYONES cars were out there.
We go inside and see everyone sitting there.
"Wow you got her out of her cocoon" johnsons says.
"Yeah now what's the big news?!" Sam says.
"Me and Jack are getting married!" Sadie says with excitement. For a split second I was super happy for them. But realized how me and cam used to always talk about getting married. I pushed the thought out of my head and congratulate them.
"Well obviously I have my two little sisters being my brides maids but will you be my maid of honor?" Sadie asks me.
"Of course I will" I smile hugging her.
*camerons pov*
It's been almost two weeks since I left. I couldn't handle not knowing how lilly was doing, so o decided to make a fake facebook and add her.
Name: Jacob Adams
live: in Washington.
I made the profile picture some guy I found on Google images.
I added a bunch of random people to make the account look less sketchy before I added lilly.
1 new notification
Lillian wilkinson accepted your friend request
I instantly clicked on her profile. Her profile picture was a picture of her in a teal dress, her favorite dress. She looked gorgeous.
I scroll down.
Lillian Wilkinson:
Words can't describe how much pain I feel right now
Posted yesterday.
Lillian wilkinson:
Wondering if it was all my fault..
Lillian wilkinson:
Waiting to see a green dot next to your name
Reading her statuses got interrupted by a message...from her.
Lillian wilkinson: do I know you?;-;
Me: uh I guess not :p
Lillian: how'd you find my fb😂 we have like, no mutual friends
Me: adding randoms, what's up?
Omg I said what's up? I'm a stranger to her I can't just say what's up!
Lillian: nothing wbu?
Me: same here just talking to a beautiful girl😘
NO NO DELETE NO!
SHE DOESNT KNOW ITS YOU
she doesn't know it's you...
Lillian: uhh I have a boyfriend..
Wait.. She got a boyfriend?...
Me: oh who?:)
I was trying to sound nice even though I was upset.
Lillian: his name is cameron.
My sadness once again turned into happiness.
Me: oh I didn't realize
Lillian: yeah it's a little weird but yeah, I'm dating him.
Me: what's he like?
I just had to know what she described me as okay!
Lillian: well he's nice and stuff and really cute.
Me: oh cool.
Haha.
I'm cute.
I added everyone else hoping they wouldn't find it weird.
Jack gilinsky:
Now engaged to my beautiful fiancé💕
Wow I missed that much in two weeks?!
I then went to Sadies Twitter
Sadie Gilinsky (it sounds cute okay)
Can't wait to spend the rest of my life with the love of my life
Sadie gilinsky: you can't just date a girl for a year and then disappear on her.
Hmm wonder who that could be about.
Oh yeah the guy who dares the girl for a year and was stupid enough to mess everything up just by introducing her to someone. I've tried every possible way to work out in my head how I can go back to her, but I can't. She's so sensitive and Mandy will ruin her.
There was a knock on the door and I open it. Ew. Her.
"Hey" she smiles.
"You do realize I didn't move back here for you, I moved back here so you couldn't hurt Lillian" I say
hwr phone songs and I look down at it for a split second.
And I couldn't believe who she was texting..
"How the hell do you know jayden?!" I ask her. She stood there silent.
"Oh did you guys somehow find eachother over your hatred for lilly or something?" I say "you know he mentally and physically abused her? You know he caused her to have to live with a mental illness the rest of her life?" I say.
"So?" She says.
"So? So he ruined her life! Why are people like this?! Why can't you just leave her alone!" I yell.
"That day I came to your house begging for forgiveness and telling you I still loved you, you said you were into someone else. And when you got in a relationship with her I figured who that someone else was" she says leaving.