My Only Hope

Chapter 28

"Sam I'm going to see sadie" I say. Me and cam wanted to go see little Carson today.
I walked to cams house and walked in. Nash was there with the girl from the ice cream place.
"Well hello again" I laugh.
"Hey!" She says.
"Is cameron ready?" I ask nash.
"I don't know go see" nash says.
"CAMERON GET YOU FAT BUTT DOWN HERE" I yell.
"Coming!" I hear him yell back.
"And that's lilly for you" nash laughs.
"Hey babe" cam says giving me a quick peck before grabbing his keys.
"We'll be back later" cam says and we go out to his car.
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We get to the hospital and go in to see Sadie. Jack was holding Carson and they both said hi.
"Hey how are you feeling?" I ask Sadie.
"Fine I just needed some rest" she says.
"Aw you put her in the onesie I got her!" I say.
"Isn't it adorable I absolutely love it" she says.
"Wanna hold her?" Jack asks. I nod and take little Carson into my arms.
"She's the most adorable thing" I say sitting down.
"Cam I think your girlfriends got baby fever" Jack laughs.
"Well I see why Carson is so cute" he says which made me happy.
We helped Sadie and Jack get everything ready and in their car. I strapped Sadie into her car seat and the drove home.
"Let's have a baby" I laugh jokingly to cameron.
"I'm sure you're gunna have your hands full with carson" he says
"That is very true" I say we get in his car and go home.
*sadies pov* (omg yassss)
We brought little Carson home.
"This is your room" I say taking her into the nursery.
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"Your turn" I say to Jack as I hear Carson cry.
We have been waking up every hour for the past week. Luckily lilly and cameron said they'd babysit her in the morning so we could have a day to ourselves.
*lillys pov*
I threw on a grey Tagore and black leggings and my fav slippers, tied my hair up and headed outside where cam waited for me.
We get to sadies house and go inside.
"Hey guys" I say.
"Hey! So here's little Carson, we will be back by 7, 7:30 at the latest. She needs a bottle because she hasn't had breakfast yet also" Sadie says.
"Go on we got this" I say.
"Thanks again guys" Jack says before they leave.
"Hold her for a sec?" I say handing Carson to cameron. I go to the kitchen and make the bottle. I heard Carson start to cry.
"I don't know what to do" cameron says.
I popped the bottle in the microwave.
"Lilly help I don't understand" cam says and i laugh.
"It's not rocket science" I say grabbing the Byrne and testing it on my arm to make sure it wasn't too hot.
"Here" I say taking the screaming crying baby and sitting in the rocking chair and feed her, her bottle. She stopped crying.
"You're really good with kids" cameron says
"I've never really been around baby's much" I say.
"Well I guess she just loves you" he says.
Soon enough after feeding her and changing her she fell asleep in my arms.
"Do you ever want kids one day?" I ask cameron.
"Um I don't know, so how's things going with Jack?"
"Why do you do that?" I ask
"Do what?" he asks
"Everytime I talk about having kids you change the subject, why?"
"Just thinking of being a dad is scary. I'm afraid I'll be bad at it" he says
"If we have a baby, you don't have to be perfect. All parents learn as they go. And besides, we have a little practice with this one" I say looking down at my best friends baby.
"What'd I ever do without you?" Cam smiles at me.
"I'm guessing not babysit" I laugh.
"That is very true" he says.
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I had put carson down for bed and was sitting on the couch. Cameron was laying his head on me asleep. Like HE was exhausted.
Jack and sadie walk in and laugh at cameron asleep.
"That's us most days" sadies laughs.
"Cam wake up" I say and he wakes up.
"Now I see why you guys needed a day off" cam says.
"Thank you guys so much" Jack says.
"It was no problem whatsoever" I say
"Well we better be heading out" cam says.
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Cam drops me off at my house and sams car wasn't here.
I walked inside And saw Nate.
"Hey have you heard from sam?" He asks.
"No why are you here? How'd you get in?" I ask.
"Forget that I'm afraid he's gunna do something stupid" he says.
"Why what happend?!" I ask.
"Jayden found out you were back a while ago. We didn't tell you because we didn't want to stress you and he finally found out where you live. He came and sam got into a huge argument with him. Jayden knew he couldn't do anything with both me and Sam there so he left by sent a text saying something that pissed Sam off. And now Sam is looking for him" he says.
"What's the text say?" I ask.
"Don't worry about it okay? Sam asked me to stay here and watch you so jayden couldn't do anything." He says.
"Well is Sam going to be okay?" I ask.
"Even if they did come face to face Sam could take him, Jayden's scrawny" nate laughs.
"I know Sam will be fine, he's smart, it's just cause he's my brother I guess is why I'm worried" I say
"Well what'd you do today?" He asks changing the subject.
"Me and cameron baby sat carson for 11 hours straight" I say
"Oh fun a screaming baby for 11 hours" he laughs
"Oh yeah it was a blast especially playing peek-a-boo" I laugh
"So when's yours and camerons 1 year" he asks which was different. He wasn't the kind of person to ask stuff like that.
"2 weeks" I smile.
"It feels like you guys us have been together for years" he says.
"Yeah I guess" I say
"About this whole Sam and
Jayden drama. Don't tell anyone because Sam doesn't want anyone trying to invade on it" he says
"Okay, I won't. I'm going to watch Netflix wanna come?" I ask.
"Sure" he says. We go up to my room and I set up my computer. We sit on my bed and watch whatever dumb show he put on. I was exhausted from baby sitting that I wasn't watching anyways. Soon I fell asleep.
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I heard someone walk into my room but I thought nothing of it and kept my eyes shut. Probably nate.
"What the hell is this?" I hear cameron yell. I sit up and see nate next to me. He must have fell asleep when we were watching Netflix last night.
"Cameron it's not what your thinking" I say.
"Why is he even here?! I can't believe this!" Cameron storms out of the room and I go after him.
"Cameron wait" I say as we stand at the front door.
"What is it lilly? You still like him?!" He says.
"No it's not that at all! I have no feelings for him!" I say
"So why was he here? Why was he in your bed?!" He asks.
"I can't tell you but you need to believe-" he cut me off
"Yeah whatever lilly" he says slamming the door and leaving.
I felt myself start to cry as I sat on the couch.
"God I'm so stupid" I say and nate walks in the room.
"It's not your fault I shouldn't have
Fallen asleep" he says.
"I just ruined everything" I say crying more.
"No you didn't, he'll get over it. he's cameron, he loves you" nate says.
"and I can't even tell him the truth so he thinks I'm just a big liar" I say.
"It's going to be okay" he says.
"No! It's not! Sam should be here helping me instead of hunting down that idiot" I say
"Believe me by hunting down that idiot he's helping you" he says.
"I need fresh air" I say walking outside alone and shutting the door. I called Sam. No answer. Called again. No answer.
I started to break down. I couldn't help it. Jayden's back, my best friend and boyfriend probably hates me, and my brother was missing.
I felt a hand on my back and looked up.
"Hey" nash says sitting next to me.
"Hi" I say.
"You okay?" He asks.
"Not really" I say.
"Well as you probably figured out by the angry cameron I messed up big time" I say.
"How?" He asks
"Cameron didn't tell you?" I ask
"He did but it sounded like he didn't give you a chance to explain" he says.
"That's the thing though I can't explain cause I promised Sam I wouldn't tell anyone" I say.
"Well whatever it is, I'm sure cameron will get over it, he loves you to death" he says.
"I hope" I say wiping my tears.
"You and cameron are going to be alright okay? You guys have never had a fight, it was bound to happen sooner or later, now you guys just need to work it out" he says
"Thanks nash" I say.
"Anytime, now I better go back, I'll talk to you later okay?"
"Okay" I say and he leaves. I look down at my phone and see I have a voice message from Sam.
I opend it.
"Hey lilly, don't worry okay? I'll be back by tonight. I'm sure nate told you everything by now. I got Jayden to back off, he's leaving you alone. Love you lots, and see you tonight."
I smiled at the message knowing he was okay.
I spent most of the day pacing and being upset
I heard a car pull up and ran outside.
It was Sam.
He got out and I ran up to him and hugged him.
"You're back" I smile.
"I'm back" he smiles back.
We go inside and sit on the couch.
"So I know yesterday might have been pretty crazy" he says
"Not as crazy as today" I say under my breath.
"Are you okay?" He asks
it was silent for a moment before I spoke up.
"Not really" I say with a tear slipping from my eye.
"Wait what happened?" He asks
I explain everything that happens and he hugged me.
"It's okay lillian, I'll talk to him okay?" He says and I nod. I'd rather Sam explain what went on with jayden instead of me cause I didn't really know much myself.
"I'm gunna go talk to him and then we can go get something to eat" he says and heads over to camerons.