Servant of Jotunheim

Guarded

Ever since the day I rejected Helbindi, the King has forbidden entry to Asgard from Jotunheim and now has the Bifrost heavily guarded at all times.

As a precautionary measure, the many secret Bifrost portals throughout Asgard that only the King himself is permitted to use are also under guard.

I know he only wishes to protect me, but when Helbindi inevitably comes for me he will not hesitate to kill everyone in his path in his efforts to possess me.

I am still thoroughly ashamed of myself for becoming so lost in the hypnotic lust that had taken over me in his presence, but I was no longer myself.

If it were not for the King's intervention, I would undoubtedly be back on Jotunheim at this very moment and for that I owe him my life.

I am under strict instructions to remain in the chambers next to the King's, except for when I am permitted to visit the library. My current sense of isolation has become rather stressful as of late.

Loki: "How was your day?" he asks upon entering my chambers.

Me: "I have been wallowing in here all day, Loki" I sigh with boredom.

Loki: "I want you to be safe".

Me: "Please, I simply wish to venture outside, even for a little while".

Loki: "Valanya, I wish that too, but I cannot bear the thought of that beast laying his hands upon you once more".

Me: "I know you will not approve of what I am about to say. When he comes for me, I would rather go with him without a fight rather than have any Asgardians harmed".

Loki: "And I would rather give my own life than have that monster take you from this realm".

Me: "I owe you my life, Loki. I was too weak to resist him".

I feel the sting of fresh tears forming in my eyes.

Loki: "You are far stronger than you are aware. After all of the hardships you have endured, most would have gone mad".

Me: "I may very well go mad still. Especially after what Helbindi confided in me about King Laufey".

Loki: "What did he tell you?"

Me: "That he purely took pity upon me due to the fact that he cruelly abandoned his firstborn son and left him to die. How could the King I only knew to be my protector be so uncaring?"

Loki: "People can be more than what they appear. You for example are part frost giant, but you are far more than that".

Me: "You truly believe so?"

Loki: "I know so, Valanya".

He holds me so close that I can feel his warm breath on my neck.

Loki: "May I stay here with you?"

Me: "I am not worthy of such affections from you, Loki".

Loki: "You already have them".

He spends the entire evening with me in my chambers, simply holding me while I sleep.

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I wake early the next morning and look upon his face. I cannot help but feel an unfamiliar fluttering sensation in the pit of my stomach.

I do not know how, but even in the simplest acts of kindness he is somehow able to make me feel things I had never felt until knowing him.

I appreciate how he has even taken to calling me by my full name when we are alone together, even when I am in my true form and also allows me to call him Loki.