Every Second There Is Love

Chapter Twenty ~ Angel In A Demon

Chapter Twenty ~ Angel In A Demon

~Luhan's Point of View~
(YourName) has been acting weird all day today, is there something that's bothering her? I don't understand her, I try so hard but it's as if there's a barrier in between us. What's really going on? Ever since this illness thing.. is this the effect of it? Maybe I should take a seat with her and speak with her alone about it. I want to help her ease her pain and all her regretful faces, but I don't really understand what's going on. Maybe I'm doing a bad job as her boyfriend, instead of just protecting her from the countless times Nancy and Brandon bullies her. Instead of giving her ice packs on her bruises, bandages on her cuts, I should help put her heart back together. She's been hurt more mentally than physically and giving her physical help just makes her illness get worst because she's obviously thinking that she's not even being bullied because I'm there to heal every wound she has, except the heart. If only I could notice this early, I've been making it worst for her, I've been giving her more stress without her knowing it. Maybe is this why she's acting all weird? I've done such a terrible job as her boyfriend. Maybe I shouldn't have asked her out in the beginning because I clearly don't understand her. She is a work of art that I didn't take the time to clearly appreciate. I guess I only thought of how she should be appreciating me for always being there to help her. I never showed my appreciation towards her. Yea maybe I don't have friends, maybe I threw away popularity for her, but it was all worth it because she made me smile every time she's there on my mind. I should be thankful for all these little things about her.

~Brandon's Point of View~
My sister has been sending me these weird texts every other ten minutes, even in class, ever since we went to the principals office. I don't really understand it, the meaning to the words are so deep. I'm scared not because I don't understand it, but because of what's possibly going through her mind and what she's planning to do next. Maybe I might be worrying to much but Nancy has always been a person who always thought of suicidal thoughts when something happens to her popularity. I remember in elementary school, there was this one guy she really liked, I think it was Mike? Her friends were really rude to her because she always talked about Mike but she couldn't help it. She thought of suicide because she couldn't be with Mike but she was losing friends for loving Mike. At that time she started bullying a girl named (YourName)... (YourFullName)... as in the one who's in this school right now?! So that's why Nancy has always been telling other people that they didn't understand the whole situation. It has to be a pain to have the same girl who takes the person you love two times! It all makes sense now, I can't believe I never understood her even as her brother. I really hope these texts aren't about suicidal thoughts.. if she really has those thoughts, I'm going to regret because I'm just staying seated in class and not doing anything about her. Maybe I'll go check on her.. Suddenly I get a text from her again saying, "Hey I love you brother, no one can replace you, ok? Remember that especially while I'm gone. Please do me a favor and forgive Luhan and (YourName). I know you won't listen to me, but it's my fault. I'm sorry I couldn't be a better sister and stay by your side longer." I jumped out of my seat and shouted "Nancy's in trouble, she's planning to suicide!" I ran out and went up the flights of stairs, no matter how tiring I ran up there. I'm not going to let her leave me like this

~My Point of View~
The moment I heard the word "Suicide" I had a feeling of guilt in me. I, too, rushed out of the classroom and up the stairs to the roof of the school. I was tired and exhausted only on the third floor, I had three more floors to go up! I am out of breathe, I can hear myself breathe so loud, but I didn't take a rest, I put in all my effort to go save Nancy. I have so many words to say to her. Maybe this hit me that I should no longer lie to everyone. If it has to bring me back to the person who everyone hated the most, I'll do it, to save someone's life. Everyone is behind me, the place fills with sounds of people stomping up the stairs, rushing to the roof, top of the school building. As I reached the top, there I felt a breeze of wind that left me with chills down my back. I stood there and saw Nancy looking down, ready to jump off. Without thinking, I shouted her name as loud as I can.

Me: Nancy! Nancy! Hold up, there's so much I have to tell you before you go! Give me just a few minutes, please let me explain, I'm sorry! I owe you a sorry, so please don't go!

I shouted at the top of my lungs, trying to fight the wind, hoping she could hear me cry out. I'm out of breathe but i rather save a life than to save my own, especially with so much I'm regretting

Nancy: Ah (YourName), I have something important to say to you, maybe I am jealous of you, and I'm sorry to cause someone so innocent like you to become the person you are now.

Me: No! Nancy! No! You don't get it! I should be saying sorry! I'm not innocent at all! You can hate me after I tell you, but please listen! I don't want to regret for the rest of my life! I don't want you to die! As much as I hate you or dislike you, I don't want you to die! I rather have you bully me again than for you to jump down!

Everyone was crowded around me. I bet the whole school is probably up here.. to witness the jerk I am and all the truth I'm about to spill out. Maybe someone would let her just jump off and say nothing but I can't do that. As much as I want to be with Luhan peacefully and to have friends, I don't want to earn it with the person I dislike to die because of me! I'm nervous to say it because in just maybe a few minutes or even seconds people would hate me.. or maybe even want me to die.

Me: Nancy.. please listen carefully, the whole world can hate me, but please listen to me now and step away from the edge of the building! It's windy! Okay.. listen.. about that illness.. it's not true! You were right, I don't have it, you're right about me. I lied, I made people pity for me to get you to stop bullying me and to finally have friends who care for me. There was just this one night in school where i was really tired of all your actions, you've been stuck to me like a gum for all my life, since elementary school. I wanted you to stop but you didn't and I was really tired of it! I never mean to "steal" the guy from you.. okay I was just being who I am, trying to get friends. You didn't allow me to have friends, therefore, I only had Mike, I also had Luhan too. Maybe it's too coincidence for it to be the two guys you loved, but i'm not trying to compete with you. I'm perfectly fine actually, with no illness, no Escaping Into Fantasy illness.. no, for my information, I'm not perfectly fine, my mind is corrupted, it's messed up to think of lying about my health to get back at you. Let me tell you though, I did regret many times, so many times, I had so many sleepless nights! Maybe you all will hate me, everyone here, but do know, I still have a heart to regret, I still have the heart to ruin the rest of my life to keep her from jumping off this building. There are many people out there who'd support others to die, but I'm not that, so at least, don't make me seem so bad in your image. I do apologize for everything, and to Luhan, I know you're somewhere around listening, I'm sorry, I should have been thankful for having you, I shouldn't even have thought of trying to get friends because you were all I really needed, now I'm not asking you to stay by my side because if you did, that would be to fake for you not to be mad at me. I love you, but I'll let you free from my evil embrace. I won't go suicide myself either because I deserve all the hate you have for me. I have no regrets in telling you all the truth because I have no rights to ask for forgiveness, right now, I'm beyond a total jerk.

Author's Note: Do you understand this Chapter title? Angel In A Demon? It means that (YourName) is a devil for telling the lie about the illness, but she's becoming an angel slowly as she cares for Nancy. She's also becoming an angel as she's trying to apologize and hoping that tragic won't happen. She's hoping that Nancy would stay alive and continue to bully her than for Nancy to die. I hope that makes sense!

...To Be Continued~~~

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