Every Second There Is Love

Chapter Thirty Nine ~ Take Me Away

Chapter Thirty Nine ~ Take Me Away

~My Point of View~

For me to do this is really out of attention. I know, I'll always make this mistake. I'm only a human. I want to be loved just as much as others are. There's also a limit to it though. Too much love could result in danger. I want to be loved just enough.. Am I just really picky? It can't go exactly my way, it's either no love or a lot of love. I know it, yet I still do it. To cry.. to make people pity me.. it's all for attention. I know it. I do and I'm only doing this because I really need him to realize that I can't live without him by my side. But now, it won't ever matter ever again. It will never be something I have to worry about anymore because in a few seconds I'll hit the concrete ground so hard, my skull will blow out. Then my soul can roam freely in the world, where I'll never have to remember my life.

There's so much to be appreciative for though, there's so much I can smile for, so much to laugh about, but I just can't seem to let that side of me out. It's like it doesn't even exist. People might as well think I'm a player, I can smile a perfect smile with anyone in the world. I can smile a perfect smile for the rest of my life without even meeting Luhan. Yet I claim that I can't. After all, this whole world lies. Everyone lies to their loved ones. To touch their heart, they say something out of the blues to make their heart skip a beat. They lie, saying I never seen anyone sweeter than you. I've heard that one a lot. "I'll love you forever!" "I'll stay by your side always!" "You're forever in my heart!" These lines.. aren't they so fake? Is there really forever? Even if there is, more than half the population can't handle a life time with one person. They get tired of them easily, but yet they can say so freely in the beginning that their love for them is forever. The world is cruel.. so cruel. People can lie and it can mean nothing but when I lie, it means everything. Maybe because I'm important? Hah.. funny. I'll finally leave this unfair world. In the end, I'm complaining still. In the end, I'm only looking for love, for fairness. I guess that's why I deserve to be so hated on. Nothing is so great about me anyways. Ugly nose, messy hair, abnormal eyes, weird mouth, weird-shaped face.. I'm not a model.. and to add on, I have a terrible personality. I was born to make mistakes, to ruin other lives, and to die, being known as the most terrible person in the world. Take me away from this world as if I'm an angel.. ironic.. because I'm a devil.

I close my eyes as my last drop of tear flows down my face. Take me away from this world.. This will be my last goodbye. I whisper, "Goodbye Luhan.. I love you. I'm deeply and truly sorry.."

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~Nancy's Point of View~

As I run down the stairs, I hear more and more sirens. They get louder and louder. She must have left the world.. she's probably getting the very first rest she's got since her birth date. It's a shame to be the one to cause her an unbearable pain. I'm sorry. (YourName).. I'm sorry. How will I ever live my life so innocently? Why didn't you stay away from the edge of the roof? Maybe you'll never have to think about it, I'll always be haunted. At least give me a life time to make it up to you.. I hate myself!

I hate myself.. I slap myself across the face and fall to the floor. How will I be able to attend your funeral? Everyone will hate me and say it was all my fault. I won't have any guts to face your family! Please tell me what to do! Are you forcing me to go die with you?!

~Luhan's Point of View~

She fell in my arms and I fell to the floor. I hit my head hard on a rock, but it didn't matter at all. I saved her. I saved my love. I gave us another chance. I gave myself another chance to say sorry and really tell her my true feelings. There's hope. In order for me to realize what I really needed and wanted in life, she had to go jump off this building in front of me. It was just almost too late to go back. I'm still considered late.. will she still accept me? Or will she hate me for saving her and for giving her years more worth of pain and waiting?

*Phone vibrates. Ringtone goes off.*

It's her voice. (YourName)'s voice. I let out a smile. I pretend I don't miss her at all, but all along I did.

The moment I picked up the phone, Nancy was screaming at me. "It was all your fault! If you gave her another chance and if you weren't so hard on her, she wouldn't have jumped off that roof! The whole school knows you care for her! Everyone knows! Why did you pretend not to care for her? She loved you! You clearly see that!" She shouted. Ahh.. my ears.

"Yah! Don't scream at me! Next time I won't pick up your call at all!" I yelled over her voice.

"You!.. Do you even know what her last words were to you?!" She shouted worriedly.

I received a text message from Nancy. I opened it to see a video. Her lasts words I didn't listen to, so I can run down and catch her from falling hard on the ground. Aish! (YourName), you're so silly! I'll never live happily with Nancy and without you. You heard it! Just at first, my ringtone was your voice! If it wasn't for that, I don't think I could manage a day without you! I'll never want to forget you, I don't want to forget our love. It's not the best, but it's not the worst. It's not the first that I've got hurt from someone lying to me, but it's my first time feeling ashamed. Technically, I'm the victim. You lying was wrong, it hurt me, but I didn't think that my reactions would hurt you. I didn't think the person who lied would get hurt too. It's silly of me and it's silly of you too. Why did you try to suicide? You're only 14 years old, only almost 15. You have the world ahead of you, why did you try to suicide because of me? Is me ignoring you and avoiding you really worth killing yourself? Please promise you'll never do this ever again! I promise you I won't run away from you ever again..

"(YourName)!" I cried. I hugged her so tight in my arms. I used all my strength to keep her in my arms. Maybe I'm slowly losing consciousness, maybe my head hurts a lot, maybe my blood is flowing out from my head, but I'm not going to let anyone or anything take her away from me. I kissed the top of her head and whispered, "Why are you so silly..Do you know how worried I was? You gave me a heart attack.. (YourName), I'm sorry. I'll never avoid you ever again. I'll never leave you alone or hand you off to anyone else in the world. I'm sorry. Don't blame yourself anymore, it's also my fault for not being a real man and for not being your manly deer."

"Luhan ge! Save me..!!" Someone shouted in fear. MeiHan?! Is that you? Although my vision is starting to blur a little, I blinked and blinked to see clearly. Brandon? Am I visioning this right? MeiHan! Oh my gosh! He's pointing a gun at her! How.. is he out of prison?!

"How..?" The word slips out of my mouth. I felt a sudden breeze of wind.

"MAN WITH THE GIRL, PUT DOWN THE GUN OR WE'LL BE FORCED TO FIRE." The police said. One thing to be safe about is the police all around us. He won't get away with anything but that doesn't guarantee everyone's hundred person safety.

"I said I'll never EVER let you and her be together! I warned you, you know it's coming! Don't say I didn't warn you.. when I can say it, I keep my words. I'm crazy, you should know that. When I say I'll do ANYTHING in order to make sure you too aren't together, I mean deaths and pain." He threats us, ignoring the police.

"If you really need to kill someone out of the three of us, let me be the man and let me take the bullet! I've been through it once to the head, I'm hard- headed! Come at me!" I shouted.

*Bullet Fired*

...To Be Continued~~~~

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FYI : I'm planning to end this story at around chapter 45? Maybe more or less. I'm not sure enough to give you an exact number, but I hope you enjoy the story as it continues!(: