Every Second There Is Love

Chapter Twenty Six ~ Be My Man

Chapter Twenty Six ~ Be My Man

I take a step back, wipe my tears away, and turned around. I shook my head and took in a deep breathe. My heart starts pounding as someone places their hands on my shoulders. I turned my head to see the same man who was drunk with my girl- ani(no), i mean (YourName). I almost forget we broke up too. For a split second, I really wanted to punch him in the face, but reason to I really have to do that? I kept silent and Mike drunkenly blurted, "Yah! Luhan! If you want (YourName), you're going to have a competition against me. Maybe I don't love her as much as you, maybe I don't deserve her as much as you but I still have a chance because you set her free. You've hurt her enough, I'm going to stop that pain for her. I'l be the real man and face her. I'll be the one to take care of her, so forget about her and leave!"
I really want to punch him now, how can I lose to someone who doesn't even love her?! Ok maybe he does but not as much as I do! How can he win me when he can survive without her? It's all different for me, all this time with the thought that she's not mine, I've been going crazy! But then again, it's true I let her go out of my hands, Mike has every chance to win me. Aish! Why did I have to let her go?! Ahh! Why am I thinking of these things?! I can't possibly forgive her! No, I won't because I can't. Mike can do anything to her, her business is not mine anymore. I throw Mike's hand off my shoulders and walk off.
"Are you going to lose to me like that already? You're just going to walk away from (YourName)? She's drunk at night alone. She can get raped. Also, we're all only in high school, first year. She's not at the right age to drink, if she gets caught, she'll get in trouble. As much as I want her to be mine, let me tell you one thing. I hate to see her cry and drown in her tears for you. If you care for her just as much as she cares for you, why can't you two just get together? Don't tell me you don't care about her, you came here rushing to make sure she's not in danger at this time. I'm giving you a chance to take back your girl. If you can't, she'll be my wife soon. You got four years, if you hold onto your grudge like that for these four years, you really disappoint me." Mike says as he chases after me. He stops me with his hands on my shoulders again. He looks into my eyes and seriously says, "Be a man."
"Be a man? Am I not?" I questioned him.
"You don't look like one. You look more like a girl who's never grown up to forgive! Holding grudges? We're not kids anymore. It's just one lie, can you learn to forgive? In this world, who hasn't told one lie? In this world, who hasn't made a mistake? Give her another chance to start again just like how I'm giving you another chance to be with her. I know you love her still. It's a lie if you don't. If we never had chances, we wouldn't be where we are now." Mike confesses.
Mike pushes me back to the bar, hinting me to carry (YourName) back home, hinting me to be a man, to be her man. Don't be scared Luhan, or you'll lose to Mike. Most important is that you'll lose her. Be a man, don't get others to do the job for you anymore.

~Flashback~
My phone started ringing, the song that (YourName) and I chose as "our" song started to play. The display name was (YourName). I stopped breathing for a second then the next, my heart raced away, beating faster than ever. How would I talk with her? I walked back and forth, hesitating. I took in a deep breathe, trying to calm myself down. Breathe in, breathe out. Again. Breathe in. Breathe out. I answered the phone and before I could say "Hi", (YourName) started off with, "Nancy! Do you..." It gave me a heart attack! I almost wanted to jump off the floor. I moved my phone farther away from my ears, but close enough to still hear. In my mind, many things were going on. I kept thinking, "Yah! (YourName)! Keep your voice down! Are you trying to make me go deaf?! Did you call the wrong person? I'm not Nancy.. or.. are you drunk?" but I couldn't speak a word to her. She kept ranting to me, thinking I was Nancy. I wanted to hang up because I felt like these words weren't for me to hear. Then the next moment she said the words "marriage between Mike and I", my heart went wild. My eyes widened, I sat up straight, and my hands clenched into a fist of rage. I wanted to shout in the phone and stop that marriage but I kept quiet as I heard her say my name with the word love. Her voice calling my name calmed me down, my anger suddenly went away and I sat there listening to her rant. As she says, "Aiyah, anyways, Nancy thanks for just listening tonight." I suddenly burst into tears silently. I grow weak because of her but I can't just act like nothing happened and go back to her side. But I can't let her be alone at night drunk like this. Aish.. no matter how much i think about it, there's something I have to do! Ah! That's it! She's called "Nancy" and not me. It'll be likely that Nancy should go look out for her and carry her home. (YourName) will think she called Nancy and she won't know that I ever received this call.
I gave Nancy a call right after (YourName) ended the call. The moment Nancy answered, I said, "Nancy.. um this might sound awkward but (YourName) just gave me a call and I think it was suppose to be for you. She kept calling me Nancy and I think she's drunk. I think you should go get her back home? You know I can't show her that I care for her."
"Luhan? Why are you calling me at this time? You're a man, why don't you go? I'm not friends with her okay.. Why are you trying to hide the fact that you care for her? We all know you love her. Just say a simple sorry and it'll solve everything! All your pain and all her pain. You're only hurting people for not learning to forgive." Nancy strikes back at me.
"Yah! Nancy.. she said she was going to marry Mike! And if I ruin that, Mike won't be happy because he'll lose his future wife. If I forgive her, Mike would be hurt!" I yelled back at Nancy.
"Mike never loved her, he wouldn't even be happy to marry her. Don't give me excuses and be a man, face her." I replied, calming down tone.
"I know you'll help me, Nancy, I know you will. Mike might be there, you'll get to finally see him after so many years, don't tell me you will say no to that. All you have to do is go bring (YourName) back home safely."

~End of Flashback~
Author's Note: This flashback reflects on the first time (YourName) called Luhan instead of Nancy which was in Chapter Twenty Four.

Both Nancy and Mike want me to forgive (YourName) and give her another chance. Am I doing something wrong? Can I not forgive her? Maybe I still grow weak because of her, but it doesn't mean I can or am willing to forgive her. I guess you can say I never loved her enough or maybe I love her too much.

~Flashback~
My phone rings, the same ring tone again. The second call I receive from (YourName) on this night. If she thinks I'm Nancy still, she better get some help to read her contact names correctly. Unsurprisingly, my heart still beats faster than ever after reading the caller ID. Her name makes me nervous and always play with my fingers. Is it true that I'm only hurting the two of us when I don't forgive her? After hearing Mike tell me to man up, I don't have an excuse to not forgive her. It's true that we're left hurt if I don't forgive her. Does our future rely on me? I don't want to hurt her anymore and I don't want to cry myself to sleep tonight. I miss her in my arms. If I was to forget her, I would have changed my ring tone the moment she ended the first call, but instead I called Nancy in a hurry. The answer is that I want to be with her still. I grabbed my jacket and got in my car to drive to the bar and pick up my girl.

~ End of Flashback~
Author's Note: This flashback reflects on the second time (YourName) called Luhan instead of Nancy which was in Chapter Twenty Five.

I walked slowly with worry, towards (YourName). She sat there, drunk. My eyes started to fill with tears of regret. Maybe if I loved her right, I would have forgiven her from the start. I placed my hands on her shoulders. She slowly got up and looked into my eyes with tears in her eyes.

Author's Note: This whole chapter is in Luhan's Point of View~

....To Be Continued~~~

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