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Chapter Eighteen ~ Heart Full of Regrets

Chapter Eighteen ~ Heart Full of Regrets

I, as the older the brother should take blame for such mistakes, for I've taught her wrong. Mom and dad always tell me to take good care of Nancy, I've always kept their words to the side, but this time, not anymore. The more I think about it, the more I believe what Nancy said. Escaping Into Fantasy illness? It seems all too fake to be true. Although bullying is wrong, I'm going to bully this girl with Nancy, to show the whole school that it was all a lie. This girl named (YourName) tries and run this school by claiming she has an illness? That's not happening, my little sister was and is the only person who runs this school. That's forever true. I'm hundred percent sure this girl has tons of tricks up her sleeves to get back at my sister but when I'm here, she's not going to touch my sister.

Principal: Either it's one of you or the both of you, you two still have the responsibility to go say sorry to (YourName) and Luhan. I won't let you two slip by with a sorry either. So don't think you two are off the hook with a sorry.

Brandon: okay.. we got it.

Principal: okay see you two around school tomorrow and treat (YourName) better please.

Brandon: oh yea let me say one thing. If you find it rude or what not, it isn't my fault. Okay so think again, of the words you just told us. Have you even done research on this illness she claims she has? Do you even know what it is? What causes it? Have you even seen the her with the symptoms of this illness? Look in deeper to the situation, do you really believe what you hear? Come to your senses, I'm not going to believe in that little letter from her parents. Bye.

I walk out with fustration but Nancy pulls me, giving me a worried look as if I was a bit too rude back there. She drags me back into the room and apologizes to the principal for my behavior. The principal just gives a cold, long stare at me. I looked back at him with a disgusted face. I don't know why he thinks he has every right to tell me what to do here and there, just because he's a principal, it doesn't mean anything to me. He can kick me out of this school, it won't even matter because I'll just go to another school but just remember I'll always have my way to get back at (YourName). For ruining my sister's life, I'm not going to old back. (YourName), you've stolen Mike from her, now Luhan, then you ruin her popularity and take all her friends? What type of beast are you?

Nancy: Hey.. what's up with your attitude back there?

Brandon: I'm trying to be a brother and stand up for what my sister believes in, because I support you. Is that something wrong I did?

Nancy: ok ok I'm sorry but really you told him to think about it, have you thought about it? Have you done research on that illness? Do you know what causes it? What are the symptoms of it? You don't even know!

Brandon: .. so you're saying you believe her now? That witch who ruined your life?

Nancy: her parents are complaining.. isn't that far too enough? I've caused enough trouble, admit it. You don't have to claim that you've done it because everyone knows I did. Save yourself some breathe to maybe like go ask a girl out on a date or something.

Brandon: So you fell for that letter? Ok, let me know when your mind is set. Head home first, I'm going to go get something to drink and I'll get home after.

~Nancy's Point of View~
Maybe I've been such a jerk that my brother even grew up with that type of personality. I feel a lot of regretting. I feel like i want to go build a time machine and take myself back into time, before I ever bullied anyone. I kind of want to start fresh, with everyone and especially (YourName). I'm not even sure if she'd give me a chance but I'll give it a try tomorrow.

~Tomorrow At School ~
I bought a box of chocolate and flowers for (YourName). I guess I'm not so good with presents, I've never paid attention to what she liked but I wanted to show her that I really thought about everything. I want to show her that I'm really sorry. Maybe it won't erase all the memories she has of me, maybe it won't help her recover from her illness and it's not even Valentines Day, but I'm still getting her these to let her know I'm truly sorry for everything I've ever done wrong which is probably everything. Great, perfect opportunity, she's alone there with Luhan. I walked up to her but Luhan pushed me away and they walked away together.

Nancy: (YourName), I'm sorry! It won't take even a minute, really. I just want to let you know that I don't expect you to forgive me, I don't expect you to be friends with me, I don't expect you to forget about what I've done to you. I just want to let you know I really want to say sorry to you! Please, take these flowers and chocolate as a gift.

Luhan: save it for your boyfriend.. we don't need it. We don't even know if the witch made the chocolate poisonous.. please keep those flowers away from us, maybe there's bees..

Witch? What witch? Ohh.. he's referring to me as the witch..

Nancy: No I would never do that! Even if I was to bully someone who I hated, I would never put their life on the line!

Luhan: Bullying someone is already putting their life on the line..

~My Point of View~
I had a flow of regret in my heart for a second. I gripped onto Luhan's hands a lot tighter that he gave me a surprised look. I looked down, regretting a whole lot. I closed my eyes, tried to ignore my feelings. Why am I feeling bad for her? I shouldn't even care for her, she chose to bully people people in the first place, so this is the outcome. This is what she deserves. I shouldn't let my heart get off guard because she's to say sorry. But maybe, I've always been wanting to hear a simple sorry from her.. Luhan gave me a worried smile. I smiled back to him as I ignored Nancy. Luhan looked at me the whole time as we started walking away from Nancy. I felt bad, I'm regretting. Is this bad? I turned back to see if Nancy was still standing there or not. She placed the chocolate and flowers on the floor, by my locker. She sat on the floor and wrote something on a paper then stuck it on my locker door. I turned back and continued walking, but at a slower pace. It's as if I let go of something but hesitate to really let it go. Should i really ignore her?

Luhan: What are you thinking? Worried? If you didn't want to tell, it shows on your face. I don't see how you can still manage to feel bad and sorry for these type of people like her. She's caused too much chaos and trouble in your life, but yet you can act as if she's your best friend. This is something I really don't understand about you. If I can forgive someone the way you do, I'd be an angel.. 

Me: I wouldn't really say that..

Luhan: is there something you're regretting? Are you regretting because you told everyone about your illness? Why would you keep it a secret anyways? You have it, you can't hide it.. I know you're probably thinking that, if you just kept it a secret to yourself, no one would know and nothing would have happened to Nancy but it's not fair for you to be bullied continuously. Pretending you don't have the illness won't help you or them. Don't regret okay?

Maybe I am a nice person or maybe I'm not. The only thing good about me is feeling wanting to help Nancy and feeling sorry for her. Everything else is pretty much bad, wanting revenge and everything. What have I become? Maybe a beast? A cold hearted wolf? My heart is filled with regrets but I shouldn't let these feelings affect me because what's not good about being popular in school? What's not good about having so many friends? What's not good about having a lovely, angelic boyfriend? What's not good about being free from bullies? I have everything to be thankful for, why should I let a feeling of regret take all that away from me?

...To Be Continued~~~

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