His Light

Kinda getting along

Alex's Pov

It's been two weeks since we came back home. I will never get used to this word, home.

Lilac has been distant lately and I don't know why, she's still scared of me, I know that but she's really distant. She just comes out of her room for breakfast and nothing more. 

I'm sitting in my fucking office and handling the problems we have with some of our allies. The load of drugs got stolen again and it fucking sucks. I killed every suspect I got into my hands.

I'm sure it's the Reeve family. They own the second biggest mafia in the US and we are not getting along well. I'm pretty sure they are planning some ambush on my mafia. 

That bastard James, and also the heir to the Reeve mafia is provoking me nonstop.

I decided to take a break and made my way towards my room as I crossed Lilac's room.

I stopped in my tracks instead of walking further to my room.

"Lilac?" I asked as I knocked on her door.

"Just a moment I have to change my clothes" she yelled back in a rushed tone.

The door opened 5 minutes later. And there was a breathless Lilac standing  in front of me. 

"Hey. Are you okay?" I asked suddenly shocked about my question. Why the fuck did I ask?

"I'm okay I guess." she said now lost in thought.

"Lilac you sure? You have been in your room for so long. It's okay if you walk around, we talked about it already just don't leave the house" I said. I was actually getting worried.

I saw now how Lilac's eyes got teary.

"Hey hey hey. Why are you crying?" I asked. She then stepped away and I saw how dark the room was even though it was early in the morning. It felt like, as if she was hiding in her room.

"S-someone was in front of the house l-last week. I was reading a book as I looked out of the window, that c-creepy guy stared at me. He had a mask on a-and was staring for over an hour. S-so I immediately closed my window and the curtains so that he won't be able to see me. I was too scared to leave my room so I just went downstairs for breakfast. I didn't want you to notice, I was so scared." she said nervously as tears were flowing down her cheeks.

I was so angry, so angry at myself for not noticing it and at my guards that they were foolish enough to not notice the stalker. That creep was there over an hour and stalked Lilac. Who knows if he was stalking her the whole week.

I had to break something, I was so angry at myself and my men. So I punched the nearest thing next to me, the mirror in Lilac's room as it broke into pieces and my hand drew blood.

"ALEX!" Lilac screamed. I was so angry for letting something like this happen, I had to kill or punch something. I was being overwhelmed with a feeling that was so unknown to me but yet so familiar. 

Lilac tried to hold my hand to look at my wound, as I harshly shoved her backwards. She stumbled and fell to the ground. The next thing I saw was Lilac running out of that room.

"FUCK!!!" I screamed. Why did I hurt her, she was just trying to help.

And I immediately decided to run after her. She could get in danger. Fuck, she made me do things I never thought I would do one day. Running after someone...

I told my men to search for her in the whole house but there was no sign of her, so I instructed them to continue searching outside. 

I was so fucking worried, that fucking man who stalked her could be out there. How could I let this happen?

"LILAC! PLEASE COME OUT AND DON'T HIDE, ITS FUCKING DANGEROUS OUT HERE" I screamed.

I decided to take a car to search faster as I walked into the garage and heard the sound of  muffled crying.

I walked up to the place where the sound came from and saw Lilac sitting in a corner on the ground and hugging her knees.

"Lilac! Thank god you are okay" I said as I hugged her tightly. She fucking scared me.

Then I tried to take a look at her face, to spot any bruises.

"Hey are you hurt? Did some hurt you?" I asked, while she was just staring at me with teary eyes.

"Y-you hurt me I was trying to help you and you hurt me" she said as she began to cry even more. "I know, I'm a burden I know." she added just staring into her lap.

"I'm sorry okay, I'm really sorry. I never meant to hurt you. And you never were a burden." I told her and held her face gently in my hands.

She was just staring at me with those beautiful green eyes.

"I'm sorry, I just get angry and can't control my anger." I said still looking at her and apologizing. 

HA I FUCKING APOLOGIZED.

"Can you accept my apology, so we can get home. It's really dangerous outside". I told her honestly. I didn't even know why I was apologizing. I never do it.

What is fucking happening to me.

"It's okay, but we have to still take care of that wound of yours" she said quietly.

"Sure." I told her and chuckled. I was surprised that she still wanted to take care of my wound.

Lilac what are you doing to me. She makes me act differently. I just can't be harsh around her or to put it another way I try not to be rude or hard towards her.

Even after I hurt her, she still wants to take care of my wound. How can someone be so kind-hearted?

She's changing something inside of me even though we are not completly involved with each other. It is so foreign.

I can't describe that feeling when I'm around her. I normally would have killed her to begin with. Why did I decide not to?

Does she make me weak? Or a better person? I DON'T FUCKING KNOW...