His Light

What is that strange feeling?

Alex's Pov

The night I found Lilac, hurt, in my room, made me feel things. I didn't know what to do the moment I saw her in that state, I fucking didn't know what to do the first time in my life. It was like as if my hands where  being tied up. 

When I saw how Lilac's eyes began to close I immediately run to her and lifted her from the ground and screamed through the house as loud as I could, to call my guards that had night shift. 

We took Lilac directly to the hospital I own, so the doctor could run some test on Lilac. As he later told me that everything was fine and that she just needed rest I was relieved, that it was nothing severe.

After all of this Lilac was in a deep slumber because of the whole medication she had to take and because of the amount of stress she had been through. I just decided to stay with her for security measures. I'm a fucking mafia boss and I have to keep the people at my side or in my business safe, if I want it or not, they are my responsibility.

I lay down on the couch lost in thoughts, as sleep slowly began to take me.

Then next thing I remember was an angelic voice calling my name. At first I didn't react to it, because I thought it was a dream, but that that person raised her voice and I immediately knew that it was Lilac.

Then I sat myself straight up and rubbed the sleep of my eyes, I walked  in front of Lilac.

She immediately flinched and kept her hands in front of her face, and this is when  I decided to reach out to touch her.

"Hey I'm not going to hurt you Lilac" I said in a calm tone as she began to put her hands down.

Even when she asked, if she can go home she did not look me in my eyes, which made me kind of angry. I touched her chin to lift her head up so she could look me in the eyes. She has so beautiful green eyes I thought.

"No, you can't go. Beg as long as you want, you stay or you die." I said to her as my words became harsher and harsher. The bad side of me showing again.

"You know what Alex you can leave me alone. Kill me. I don't care." she said as it made me angrier to hear that she was so selfless.  Then she decided to turn her back on me and ignore me completely.

I stormed off and slammed the door shut, because I could not control my anger anymore.  I would have done things to her which would make her more scared of me when I stayed longer in that fucking hospital room. 

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After Alex left the hospital

I immediately called my guard to drive me to my club I needed fucking alcohol in my system to calm my nerves. Lilac does things to me which I can't explain. I was over a whole day in the club and I was a mess. I neglected my job as a mafia boss even though I knew Rowan and Zac, one of my best friends, and one of my best men I had in this business took care of it for me.  It was midnight and it's been a day since I saw Lilac.

As I sat in my club, in the vip lounge, I did not want any whores next to me  who were out for my money. I sat and drank alone lost in thought. 

I have never seen a beauty like Lilac. She's so innocent and too good for me.

"WHAT IS THAT STRANGE FEELING YOU ARE GIVING ME LILAC" I screamed in a drunk state. I don't know what that girl does to me but I want this feeling to continue. 

"Lilac, my beautiful Lilac." I mumbled to myself as I began to feel the need to go to her. I called my guards and we drove to Lilac. I knew that she did not want me there but I had to be there no matter what. 

After we reached the hospital  I immediately went to her and when I was in front of Lilac I was mesmerized by her beauty, I mumbled something but I don't know what. I just kept staring into those beautiful green eyes. 

 I suddenly fell on a bed I was so exhausted and  the only thing before I feel asleep was a feeling of warmth next to me which gave me a kind of comfort, it was a good feeling I thought as I hugged that person more and more. I liked that feeling, it was a foreign feeling but I liked it a lot and then sleep overcame me completely.