His Light

Trust?

Lilac's Pov

"Pregnant?" I asked, there has to be something wrong, I can't be.

"Alex you are joking right Alex?" I laughed at him through tears. He really thinks that I will belive him. He's probably lying. Yes! He's definitely lying.

But everything Alex did, was staring at me with a painful expression.

"Alex please tell me you are lying."

Still no answer.

"Please Alex. Please tell me that all of this is a joke."

"Lilac you are pregnant, the doctor told me" he said looking at me.

"Alex come on you are lying right?" I asked wiping my tears off and smiling at him.

"You know I can't be pregnant, this shit of a doctor is probably working for Aiden." I added.

"Lil-"

"-no Alex. It's okay look I'm fine I'm not pregnant and I'm just me." I said making a small spin to show that I was okay.

Alex came closer to me and held me on my shoulders, looking deeply into my eyes. Silence was surrounding us, a painful silence. I guess it was the time of truth.

"Lilac you are pregnant" Alex said, looking at me remorseful.

"Alex stop" I whispered. I didn't wanted to hear those lies anymore.

"The doctor will come in a few minutes to check if the baby is okay, and he said that you shouldn't stress. It's not good for-"

I began to hit my head. Hitting it over and over again.

"SHUT UP ALEX! SHUT UP!" I screamed falling to the floor.

"PLEASE SHUT UP ALEX!" he crunched down and hugged me tightly, to hold my hands to my side.

"It's okay angel, it's okay." he said as he rubbed comforting circles with his hands on my back.

"A-Alex I can't be pregnant please..." I begged. I can't be, I just can't.

"It's okay, Lilac I'm here."

"I didn't want this, I didn't want this fucking thing in me!" I said in between sobs, releasing a shaky breath.

I hate Aiden, I hate this fucking thing growing inside of me.

"Lilac calm down, the doctor said it's not good for the baby. He will come soon to run some test on you and do an ultrasound. Lilac the doctor needs to know how far you are, and if the baby got hurt."

"I don't want this baby Alex; I don't need to run some test on its fucking health." I felt my soul brake bit by bit. The pain that was consuming me was indescribable.

Alex then hugged me tighter and kissed my head. "Everything will be okay angel, don't worry. We will find a solution for you, just let the doctor do his job."

I just nodded to what he said and hugged him back. His presence was so comforting. I liked it a lot, but I guess he didn't like it as much as I did. I was happy to have him around it just felt right. I guess that Alex didn't think that way, he said that we together, are wrong. What does he mean? And why did he blame himself for what Aiden did? I just continued to hug Alex, pushing away those disturbing thoughts and appreciating the comfort I get right now. I never felt so safe and comfortable around Alex, but my sudden need to pee ruined everything.

I pushed Alex gently away "I have to use the bathroom, Alex."

"Sure" he answered smiling slightly, I don't even know if you can call it a smile. He had a sad look in his eyes.