His Light

I can't believe that I'm doing this

Alex's Pov

I can't believe that I'm doing this. I began to loosen the ropes now, so she could sit more comfortable in quiet and not like and wild animal caught in a cage.

She flinched again as I touched her, and it made me angry.

Why the hell do I care?!

The moment I took the ropes off, she had a look on her face, and I knew what was happening, she was about to pass out.

She looked so sick, and I couldn't even get how she could end up so horribly.

But I won't care, I can't care.

I caught her again before she fell of the chair, fainting again.

"Rowan, Zac, get here, right now!" I screamed.

"Yes boss?" They asked and stood still with a cold expression right in the room.

"Get a fucking car ready we need to get her to the mansion and call a fucking doctor" I yelled, I couldn't control my anger.

"Yes boss, right away" they said in unison.

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5 hours later

The doctor finished his checkups on her and gave me an update.

"Boss" he said acknowledging me. "That girl is underweighted and dehydrated. She's very weak and small she also has scars on her wrists which means, that there was an attempt of self-harm. She should stay in bed for a few days and rest as much as she can. I can tell that she's been through a lot mentally and physically." I just nodded to what the doctor said.

I was shocked to hear what she had suffered from, but my expression stayed cold and hard.

I literally don't care, I can't care.

"Show no mercy, no emotions" I told myself.

That girl was just for a day in my life, and she was doing things to me that I hated. And that was showing emotions.

The next day I took Lilac into my room, until the guest bedroom was ready. The guest rooms in the mansion are just a mess, no one really uses it. So, it has to get cleaned up.

I heard how Lilac began to move in her sleep and the next thing I saw was her beautiful green eyes opening. I was mesmerized that she still looked so flawless.

"Alex get your shit together" I said to myself. I hate it, I will show her who I really am, I was too nice to her.

I have to be the cruel mafia boss that I am.

She's messing up something inside of me and I don't know what I just get a feeling, whatever it is.

Lilac sat herself up as she took in her surroundings. Then she spoke with a small voice.

"C-can I please g-get a glass of water?" She asked.

"Stand the fuck up bitch and get the water on your own. Know who you are talking to, I am fucking Alex Dalton" I spat. As I saw her at the very brink of crying.

I am the evil itself. I don't show emotions or pity.

"Sorry" she said as she decided to stand up. I saw how unsteady she was and just like that she fell.

"Fuck" I yelled. And then I decided to walk up to her, wanting to help as she slapped my hand away.

"I do not need your fucking help" she screamed at me and I never in my life let someone treat me that way. Anger blurred my vision.

The moment she stood up, I was already radiating with anger and without thinking I slapped her across the face as she fell to the ground again.

The only thing I was hearing was her whimpering and crying.

Then I walked to her and grabbed her face harshly lifting her up in the process.

"Nobody talks to me that way did you hear me you fucking slut?!" I screamed as I grabbed her face even harsher.

"You fucking bitch, I am on the edge of killing you, you slut, you–" my screaming was cut off the moment I saw her nose bleed and her going limp as I tightly grabbed her before she could fall to the ground.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck" I screamed now angry at myself for treating her that way. "Why am I acting like this? WHY?"

I placed Lilac after she passed out on the bed and called some maids to get her changed into something more comfortable. I gave them a black oversized t-shirt of my own, because Lilac had nothing else to wear.

And when the maids left, I entered the room again to look at her. I walked closer to have a better view of her sleeping figure.

She's so small yet so beautiful. And the way she looked in my t-shirt that fell over her knees made me feel something inside, something foreign.

I took the strand of hair that was over her face and tugged it behind her ear. She was so innocent and so beautiful.

Lilac Rose, you are doing things to me that are unexplainable, yet the only thing I do is hurting you.