His Light

Past

Lilac's Pov

When I woke up, I reached my hand out to the other side of the bed, where Alex was sleeping, just to find it empty and cold.

"Alex?" I asked in a raspy and sleepy voice.

The room was dark, but yet you could see the sun shining through the glass doors of the balcony.

As I sat up, I stretched myself, feeling much better after the sex I had with Alex.

I felt so embarrassed about my first time, but I didn't hate it, I liked it a lot. And it wasn't something like I felt with Aiden. With Aiden there was just pain and more pain, the way I felt, I just don't want to think back at those days again.

But Alex always makes the pain go away, just by showing me his adorable smile, or just by his gentle touch. He makes me feel so safe from the rest of the world.

After everything I've been through I never thought that someone would care for me or love me, but Alex did. He loves me the way I am.

As I finally managed to get out of bed, the coldness of the room hit me. Shivers run down my spine, and I was hugging myself and rubbing my arms in need for warmth.

I tried to walk into the direction of the balcony, to close the doors, as I realized that the place between my legs still were sore, from the sex we had.

It isn't as worse as it was in the beginning, but it still hurts.

And as I walked slowly and silently to the balcony, I noticed Alex standing there with some sweatpants and an exposed torso. His muscular back facing me.

He had a cigarette in his hands and was smoking.

I walked closer to him, while I was still shivering from the cold, wrapping my arms around his torso.

This time he didn't tense, knowing it was me. We just stayed like this for a moment, before he spoke up, "How are you feeling?" he asked as he drew from his cigarette.

"I'm good" I said, and kept hugging him tightly while Alex just finished his cigarette and threw it out of the balcony, turning to me.

He then gently took one of my hands in his, pulling me closer. Our lips now nearly brushing against each other.

His other hand rose up, caressing the nape of my neck, and making me blush, while holding me close.

"Are you cold?"

"Mhm" I responded. He then lifted me up, making me shriek and carrying me out of the balcony.

"Where are we going?" I asked, wrapping my arms around his neck, as he carried me pass the bedroom.

"I will make you some breakfast" he said smiling at me.

"Let me do it this time" I suggested. "Doesn't it hurt anymore?" he asked taking me off guard.

"Umm...no" I said hesitantly.

"Lilac..." he began waiting for an honest answer.

"Okay it still hurts, but just a little bit." I admitted.

Alex then placed a gentle kiss on my forehead, while continuing to walk.

As we reached the kitchen in the restaurant, he placed me gently on the kitchen stool and made his way to the stove.

Then he began preparing breakfast while I was sitting there and watching him.

"Do you want something to drink while waiting love?" he asked, but my mind just wandered off, I suddenly felt sad again. Why, do I feel sad?!