I Don't Do Relationships

Australia Again

ABOUT FIVE MONTHS

Unfortunately Chris and I didn't have much time before he had to leave to go back to work. They were switching locations and he was leaving the country. We had laid together on the bed, talking and kissing, trying the whole time to make sure we kept ourselves in check. I needed this to go slow, no matter how badly I wanted to go faster, plus we were going to be apart for some time. Getting carried away and then having to leave each other would be more tortuous than it was already going to be.

With Chris still filming his latest project, I hadn't physically seen him since the event in New York. We talked everyday over video and also through calls and texts, but it just wasn't the same. This was what I would have to learn to get used to. Long separation at inopportune times. The beginning of an actual relationship with someone is supposed to be awakening and fun with butterflies in your stomach and sweet kisses and dates. Not knowing what to expect from a kiss or finding where each special little spot is that sends shivers traveling through them. I slept better at night if I was on a video call with Chris when I fell asleep. Sometimes he had to work through the night hours and that meant we didn't get to talk while we fell asleep.

This was definitely not your normal relationship and my boyfriend was definitely not your average guy. BOYFRIEND? Every time I thought about that word and the fact that my boyfriend was, in fact, Chris Evans, a smile would spread across my face without me even realizing it. I missed him, ...his hugs, his smell, just his presence. Granted, the hugs and the kisses were much different the most recent time we parted, but I missed all of him.

It was like every time I told him goodbye, I would get that kiss or hug and then have to wait so long for it again. This time was different though because we had crossed that line and I wanted to be selfish. I wanted him to myself. It was something I'd have to work on because it wasn't something I could have. Aside from the obvious, his family, which is the easy part to understand, I had to share him with his job. That came with people swooning over him and sometimes offering things that were obscene. We had to be careful with being open about our relationship and who saw us. There were so many different factors to having a boyfriend who was an actor, let alone one that was the actual Captain America.

Luckily, when I had gained the Evans brother's in my life, I also acquired another superhero in the shape of Henry. I was packed and ready to go, tagging along as his travel companion yet again. I mean, why not? My boyfriend was gone at the moment, his brother was working right now and my best friend was where Henry was going.

My passport was in my hand and Rachel had the reins to the shop. I had closed my house up just in case any weather happened to come in. Henry was going to be doing more work back in Australia and he asked again if I wanted to hitch a ride. More time with Calvin was a no-brainer. Of course I ran it by my boyfriend before I made plans even though he said there was no need to do so. I would want to know if he was traveling to another country, especially if it was with a bunch of girls. He knew there was nothing to worry about with Henry or Calvin but I still wanted him to know. There were still times I still felt like I had to reinforce the fact that my feelings for Calvin were plutonic. Chris still had his doubts about Calvin's point of view, but I told him that he had to trust me and only worry about my feelings.

This time I had to fly to Henry first and then I'd be on the private flight with him to Australia. The flights were going to be long and the first part boring until I met up with Henry. I was so irritable and people were definitely getting on my nerves for the slightest things. During my layover, I scrolled through my phone on social media, which was something I had started doing more of. It still wasn't as much as most people it seemed, but it was more for me. Of course I came across Scott and Chris since they were in the same town and had been to a get together for a friend.