Numb ---- Suicidal Todoroki x Bakugo----[BOOK 1]

36 - Rain

Todoroki's POV:

We talked for a couple hours after that and eventually he fell asleep. I laid there for a long time, but it wasn't that easy for me. Especially with everything that had been going on lately. I couldn't focus or distract myself from thinking about him.

Why would he like me?

I'm nobody

Then again that would make sense

Maybe me being so weak makes him feel stronger, so he likes having me around to boost his ego

But then why would he care about me like that

He could easily just say we're friends and that's it

And we are just friends right

Hell, I wouldn't know

I don't know the first thing about friendships, let alone relationships

I sighed and sat up. It was almost 3 in the morning.

I need drugs

Just one to ease my mind

I got up quietly and snuck out of the room, heading to mine instead.

I love how he just assumed I only had that one bag

I'm also shocked no one has clean swept my room yet

Maybe Bakugo just assumes he can handle it

He's wrong

Probably

I don't know

I entered my dorm, an hit with an overwhelming coldness.

I guess no one's been in here for awhile.

I walked over to my bed and reached under the mattress, pulling out a small prescription bottle. They weren't prescribed to me, I just replaced the actual prescription drug for these.

I think it's ecstasy, or some combination of that and some other drugs.

I'm not exactly sure what they are

But I know they help

I opened the bottle shakily and grabbed a handful, counting them carefully.

Four is fine

I swallowed all four of them roughly, cringing as they slid down my throat. Not knowing what do to after, I sighed.

Maybe I'll just go on a walk

I threw my shoes on really quickly, not bothering to take anything but my phone with me. I snuck out of the dorms silently and walked off campus completely. I took a different route, further uphill, and came across a busy overpass. Even though it was late, the roads were still full of cars. I walked along the railing, where the bridge extended over another busy road.

I came to the center of the bridge and I stared down at the ground below.

Why did I come here of all places?

I came to get away from my thoughts but there's nothing but noise here

I like the quiet

So why did I come here?

I put one foot on top of the railing. It was wide enough for me to maintain my balance, but slim enough for me to fall with one slip.