Numb ---- Suicidal Todoroki x Bakugo----[BOOK 1]

18 - Blood

Todoroki's POV:

Eventually I made it back to my own dorm, immediately slamming my door and collapsing to the ground in tears.

What's wrong with me?

I get calls like that from my father at least three times a week

Why is it suddenly effecting me now?

I tore my bag open and took out the pack of 3 inch blades, ripping it open. The blades all fell out, scattering across the floor around me.

I don't care why I feel this way

I picked one up.

I just want it to stop

Without thinking, I rolled up my sleeve. I pressed the blade down at the top of my wrist, watching the blood slowly form around it.

I'm sorry Bakugo

I sliced diagonally from the top of my wrist to the start of my elbow, tears obscuring my vision as the blood splattered all around me. I pulled the blade out of my flesh and began savagely carving away at my arms, not bothering to look at the true damage I was inflicting upon myself. I didn't care.

I watched as my blood cascaded down my arm, then dripped down and seeped into the carpet. The more aggressively I slashed, the farther the blood would splatter.

There was blood on the walls. Blood on my face. My clothes. The floor. Even a few droplets had made it all the way to the ceiling.

My head was light, but I didn't care. I moved to the next arm, picking up another blade.

A blank canvas

Clean blade

Fresh start

I located the main artery in my arm, which stretched all the way to the end of my forearm at least.

There

I placed the blade accordingly.

That's where I'll aim

I pressed the blade down as hard as I could.

Guess I won't be showing up for training tomorrow

I slashed the blade across with all my might, feeling the blood splatter onto my cheek and run down my arm.

My hands shook violently and I dropped the blade, feeling my head go dangerously light. My vision began to grow darker, and I felt myself fall onto my side.

Shit

I went too far

What the hell did I do?

I'll call Bakugo

I took my phone out of my pocket and opened it.

(2) Missed calls from Bakugo

Shit

I tried to navigate my phone to call back, but my vision was almost completely gone. My arms were numb.

I dropped the phone and closed my eyes.

I'm sorry

I'll probably be fine when I wake up...

But I didn't mean to fuck up this badly

I'm sorry

-time skip-