Numb ---- Suicidal Todoroki x Bakugo----[BOOK 1]

26 - Talk

Todoroki's POV:

Eventually, we left the dorms to go visit my father. Needless to say, my hands were shaking the entire time.

I really fucking hate this

I can't remember the last time I had a normal conversation with him

I really don't want to confront him...

Especially if he doesn't tell me anything

Or worse

If he tells me the truth

And it's not what I want to hear

Fuck

Why am I even doing this?

Why is Bakugo coming with me?

I don't want him to get involved

Especially if I piss Endeavor off

Shit

I should just turn around

Who cares why my mother was with him?

Fuck

I do

I need to fucking know

What if she is permanently out of the psych ward?

Hell, that's great news

But she still refuses to see me...

I need to know why.

But what if she does see me and it sends her back into an episode...

I was the reason why she was sent off in the first place...

My face is just a constant reminder of what she went through

Why would she want to see me

But at the same time I'm her son

She didn't even tell me she was out of the hospital

I get it but

Still

I'm her son

Or maybe she doesn't even consider me her son anymore

I probably just cause her pain anyways

Why would she want to remember me

But why would she want to remember him either

Of all people

Why can she stand him

But not me...

Fuck

I fucking hate this shit

I hate my mind

Just stop fucking thinking about it

I just have to go talk to Endeavor about it

But I don't want to...

Shit

I hate him so fucking much

And I'm sure the feeling is mutual

He probably doesn't want to see me either

Fuck

Where am I even going?

Why am I even bothering to do this?