Something New (5 Seconds of Summer and Before You Exit)

I Can't

Toby's POV:

We decided to go back to my place so we can talk this out privately and so Riley and Connor won't kill me for bringing home cold drinks. We were up in my room and Taylor was sitting there with an emotionless face and it was killing me inside. I knew she didn't want to go but she had no choice and that was the worse part.

"You know sitting here being sad all day won't get things anywhere." I say sitting next to her

"Toby I can't be your girlfriend" She says randomly

"I never asked you but um..why?" I asked my heart slightly breaking

"Because. I'm leaving a-and I don't know if I will ever be coming back and knowing my parents I don't know how they are going to react knowing that I have been dating someone. I know they never even know what the hell is going on but this will stun them." She says starting to cry and getting up from my bed

"Taylor don't say that! I want you to be my girlfriend soon. I don't care if I'm not able to see you for a long time cause I want to be with you." I say standing up in front of her

"My dad won't let me!" She yells and the room goes silent

"I'm willing to fight for you if it means facing your dad." I say quietly holding her shoulders

"Toby I have to go. Just..." And Taylor runs out of my room and down the stairs and I hear Riley and Connor asking where she is going but I all hear is the front door slamming. The guys come walking up into my room and I was still stuck in my spot. I don't even know what just happened. I don't even know why she is mad

"Dude are you ok?" Connor says to me

"I don't even know why she's mad. I don't know what I did!" I exclaim

"Hey don't worry about it. If she doesn't come around your going over to her place tomorrow so you can say bye to her." Riley says and the guys leave and I just lie on my bed looking up at the celling and sigh

"What am I going to do?"

*WARNING scenes of self harm so if that stuff effects you and you don't like reading about it then I would skip it*

Taylor's POV:

I ran all the way home leaving my pennyboard in Toby's room but knowing him he will probably return it soon. Once I got home I ran into my room still sobbing and I lifted my mattress up and pulled out the wooden box containing my blades. 

Yeah I know that I didn't seem like the type to cut there self but I went through a rough stage in my life and there was a part of my that kept the blades. I slowly walk to my bathroom and look at myself in the mirror and I looked terrible.

"Look at myself. I look like a fucking mess! Toby is lucky that he doesn't know that I cut cause if he did then he would probably hate even being around me! I mean who would date someone that doesn't even love themselves?! Taylor your a piece of shit and why did you even think for the slightest moment that Toby even liked you!" I yell at myself and I look down to see my forearms bleeding and my hand was bleeding from holding the blade too tightly

I hear the door unlock and open and look in the distance to see Vikki and Calum laughing about something and when Vikki sees me she runs over to the bathroom and i let the blade drop into the sink and and slid my back against the counter and i start to cry harder and I feel the pain rushing through my arms

I felt Calum pick me up bridal style and Vikki cleaning my arms up and all I could think about was how stupid I am.