my light of day

CHAPTER 38

TAWAN'S POV

Living with Hin has never been the easiest.

We used to have arguements all the time even on the simplest and littlest things. Like trash that wasn't taken out, me trying to be helpful on the house chores but ends up ruining the laundry, Hin playing with his phone when he gets bored at a movie were watching then ask me what did he miss, me consistently dismissing his alarm then going back to sleep until he wakes up late for work, Hin nagging me when in fact we both turned out to be a total nagger, and the list goes on.

But over time, we got used to each other's differences. There are times when we're not even aware we just had a fight because we instinctively make up. We may be Tom and Jerry, but at the end of the day we are always Tay and New, who promised for the second time to never go to bed angry.

Until last night.

Tonight is Hin's eighth day in Singapore where he needed to work on something at their company's main branch for two weeks.

Two damn weeks of not being able to be with my Hin.

That also means two weeks of torment.

I miss him since day 1 that he left, and I've been counting days since then.

While he was gone, I kept myself immersed with things to do like sorting our clothes at the closet, reading Hin's books, or any activities where I can spare my time. Because aside from the fact that I feel homesick without Hin, I am really stressed lately that I want to take a month break from work, which is not possible. Or maybe I'm just using that as a reason.

The real reason why I'm being stressed was Hin's mom. But I can't tell him that.

Without him knowing, I wanted to do at least something to have his mom's approval to our relationship. What I did was send her flowers every birthday and a card every Christmas. That went on for years since I met her. She never thanked me nor regarded me about receiving them, which is fine with me, until last month she messaged me after receiving the Christmas card saying I should stop sending her gifts because there is no way he will accept me for his son. And that really breaks my heart.

So anyway, the past week has been a rollercoaster ride for the both of us. The first few days apart went pretty well. We exchange messages whenever we have time, and video call is a must before we go to sleep.

However, after some days, unwanted arguements and petty fights began to happen. There's not much time difference from where he is but I feel like at some point, a lot of unnecessary tension has been starting to build up.

Like that one night he got very upset when I didn't let him know I was at home already. It was past eight in the evening when I returned his call and told me he was worried sick thinking of worse scenarios that can possibly happen to me. He even sent me nag voicemails that says "are you intentionally ignoring me right now?", "it hurts knowing that you no longer have time for me", and some with curses that I only got to listen after our call. But when I told him that I forgot to update him about my whereabouts because I was too tired from work and fell asleep the instant I got to bed, Hin got me off easily.