my light of day

CHAPTER 61

NEWWIEE THITIPOOM'S POV

Two days.

Two and a half days to be exact.

I have wasted two days trying to come up with a decent reason to visit Tay. Visit him where? I don't know where he lives, I don't have his number and he blocked me on all his social media accounts last February the next year we broke up. He even greeted me Merry Christmas and was waiting for a birthday greeting too until I can no longer find his accounts everywhere. I don't wanna ask Gun about his address or number anyway. That sounds like a desperate move. But how can I get ahold of him?

His studio?

Right!

I was doing laps one early morning when I passed by his studio. It was still closed but I'm sure it was the same studio owned by Tay.

Right.

That's where I'm going.

But how? I mean, why? Why would I go there? What would I say if I suddenly show up on him?

Hey, let's catch up?

Wanna have dinner together?

Erm, coffee?

Gah!! This is harder than I thought.

Uhh... What if I accidentally pass by his studio?

Damn no, that's lame.

Oh! He still has his clothes with me! After the night he left, he never even came back for his things. Some clothes, shoes...

Right!

I'll gather his things, well not everything since I want to keep some in case he reckoned coming back and then, wait-- did I say in case he's coming back??

That's too much assumption.

And giving back his things is a pathetic excuse. He may think I want to get rid of his things when the truth is I want to keep them all.

Including him.

If that's not too much to ask.

No, there must be something.

I recklessly ransacked the house for something else to whip up even after cleaning it the whole day. I don't mind cluttering up a bit if that's what it takes to get something in return.

Except, I did create a whole lot of mess in our room. I mean, my room.

After half an hour of searching, I was able to find a film camera hiding in the lowermost drawer beside the bed.

I don't know what's with this kind of camera but I remember Tay saying he preferred them to the digital one. So I guess this is an acceptable alibi to stop by at his studio.

I just need the guts, the right words to say, and all the luck in the world.

•••

Today is the day.

I'm a bit nervous though but now that I finally plucked up all the courage, I am pretty determined to face him.

I was bringing a paper bag with his camera in it and carried with me Earth's words of wisdom.

Whatever happens, happens.

It's now or never.

Make it or break it.

It's funny because these words don't make sense but they give me the strength to face him. Maybe ask him to get back together. If he wants to.