HBC One-Shots

Lost

I feel like writing a sad chapter with a serious topic. I'll just let you read.

And I'm sorry for everyone who went through this. You've got this.

This is also actually the first chapter that I didn't plan to write. I'm a person who always has to plan everything including my stories.

Enjoy reading.

Nothing.

That's what you feel at the moment.

It felt so abnormal, strange, different. You couldn't believe it. Tears start to well in your eyes, slowly rolling down your cheeks.

"Darling can I do something for you?" The voice of your mother pulls you out of your trance. You bite your lip and shake your head.

"Can you leave me alone please and take care of Emilia (your daughter) for the weekend?" Your voice was shaking and raspy.

"Of course I can. If- if you need something just call me okay? Julia should be here soon. I called her but I didn't tell her what happened. I thought you wanted to tell her by yourself or should I do it for you?"

"I'm-" you stop yourself. "I'll tell her." You look at your mother and see her also crying. "I'll leave you alone now." She kisses your hand and walks out to your daughter.

"Hi honey." "Grams did wou cwy? And what awout Momma?" "Honey everything's fine. You're gonna stay at mine for the weekend okay and we can make cookies?" She nods. "I'm gonna pack wy stuff."

You watch your daughter running to her room and sit down and sob quietly.

Five minutes later she comes back with her rucksack and her stuffed animal. "Otay I'm reawdy. By Momma." You smile at her and wave goodbye.

Once they're out of the house you start crying again.

Julias POV

I rushed home as fast as I could after Y/M/n (your mothers name) called me and she sounded worried. When I got out of the car I saw her comming out of the house with Emila.

"Y/M/n what's wrong?" She looked like she cried.

"Uhm Y/n is inside she explains everything to you. I- I take Emilia for the weekend. Please just go inside and be there for each other." I was confused but nodded and walked inside after giving Emilia a soft forehead kiss.

Readers POV

You were staring into nothing when you heard the front door open and close short after but you don't pay it any attention. You hear a voice.

Her voice

How should you tell her? Would she be mad at you? Would she leave you?

"Y/n Darling are you here?" Juliaa stops in the doorway and sees you sitting on the couch with your tear stained face. She rushes over and sits on your right side.

Staring onto the floor, your left hand on your belly, your right hand holding the ultrasound image.

She instantly knew what happened and her heart broke. You slowly lift your gaze up to meet her teary eyes.

"I lost it"

Your voice was barely louder than a whisper before you break down in tears. She holds you up and pulls you in her embrance.

"Sh sh I've got you honey" She leans your head on her shoulder and caresses your face while rubbing your back. "Let it all out" you sob into her neck while holding onto her for dear life.

"I'm so sorry" you whisper

"No, no be everything but not sorry. It's not your fault okay?" her voice sounds hurt and full of pain.

You shake your head. "But I am the one who-" She cups your cheeks and makes you look at her.

Her cheeks wet from all the tears. "Listen to me..." her voice broke.

"No matter what: I don't want you to think it was your fault because it isn't. It's no ones fault okay? No one could've seen this comming. No one knows why this happened but it's not your fault." She pulls you onto her lap and rocks you back and forth.

She smiles through all the tears and kisses your forehead. You sink back into her arms and cry onto her chest while she tries to calm you down.

You both sit there for over an hour, just crying, crying over your little angel.

"H-how?" Her voice was shaking.

"It- it was my thyroid." You look up at her.

"The doctors have found a malfunction and they said that I probably had it for a while now."

You feel yourself on the edge to cry again.

"A malfunction is always a risk for the baby and they said..." you sob.

"It was the worst moment when they said: I'm sorry but if you really had this for a while now then we don't know if we can safe it."

"oh my- I" She just hugs you so tight, she never wanted to let you go.

"That's why I felt so bad the last week I-" Your tears fall down again.

"My own kid died inside me. I felt it. I felt how the little life left my body."

"I don't know how it feels but I know that I feel the same pain as you even if I wasn't pregnant."

"I don't know how I should go on with this. I'm the one who caused its death it was my thyroid..."

"Hey, hey we'll get this okay? We'll get through this together. We have a beautiful little daughter and we'll go on for her. And again it's not your fault. It will always be in our hearts but for now you should rest."

You nod and she helps you to lay on the couch.

"I know it's hard but we're strong okay?" She kisses your forehead and covers you both with a blanket.

"Sleep now. it'll get better I promise you." She kisses your forehead.

You cried yourself to sleep and she was there with you all the time, crying with you, holding you, calming you down, trying everything that you only fall asleep and forget about this for at least a moment.

A part of her broke, a part of you broke, but you will never forget your little angel.

The angel that's flying high now.....

Okay it's the first time that I wrote something so sad.

I know it's not the best chapter, especially not the end

I hope you still liked it although it's sad