Letters for Rose {to be continued}

Dear Rose, (44)

Some actions we intend to make are dangerous. Not only to ourselves but to others as well. So the question is: how do we know wether we should go ahead with them or not? How do we decide? Some say that if we are not sure than we should not make decisions but that would lead us to not making any decisions at all. So, that one is not a good solution. Others say that we should always choose the ones that we think are the best for us but if we are not sure, should we ignore all the consequences of a decision made out of incertenity? Not a pretty solution either. I believe that, sometimes, we have to take the risk and go ahead with the one we think will be the best for us, will have less consequences and will be most likely to succed. I think we should choose the ones that scare us the most. Then, after that, we pray that we have made the right judgement and we cry if it wasn't what we expected. At least it's what I do. When I make decisions I don't intend to hurt anyone, so I'll start by apologizing if I ever hurt you. I wish the consequences were all on me. It would be wicked to make decisions and not the worse thing as it is. I would be able to control what I could do and what the effects of my decisions could and would be. I could actually anticipate this and predict the future in certain situations. How cool would that be? It would be better at least. It would be easier. Our actions are really dangerous and sometimes we can't even tell. They are also scary but only because they are dangerous. The moral to the story is, it sucks making decisions, but unfortunately we have to make them. At least, once in a while.

Cathy