I can't believe I actually wished everyone felt what I feel. My eyes was just absolutely closed because now, that I'm thinking about it, it doesn't make any sense. I was so hurt. By you, by him, by everyone who, since that, is losing touch with me. Does it make me a mean person? Am I that mad? Am I a bad person? Do you know what you actually continue to do to me? What if God heard me and caused everybody this much pain? How would I live with myself? How could I forgive myself for that? I never thought about ending this stupid life but now it doesn't feel that dumb. If everybody will be happier without me then it's a price I'm ready to pay. Cause not every person deserves this. And even the people who deserve it shouldn't have it. It's too much for one single person. My heart beats so fast now. Just for imagining what my wish could have costed to so many people. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I was so far away that I didn't knew what I was doing. I'm so sorry, I really am. I'm sorry for you too. Cause you don't deserve it either. Not for a single moment, not ever. I'm sorry. Can you forgive me? Can anyone? I'll stop wishing now. I guess is what is the best for everybody. So, no more wishes, not this soon. I'll just say that I hope everything turns out okay. No wishes, just hopes.
Cathy
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Letters for Rose {to be continued}
Não FicçãoBased on a true story this is the life of a teenager girl after she loses her best friend and her boyfriend!
