I don't even know why I'm still writing all these letters. I don't even have your real e-mail account and if I had it you would never answer me. I wish that everyone could understand everything that I am struggling with. I'm struggling with others' opinions, with your absence, with his careless and with myself. I am trying so hard to fight my own feelings, thoughts, weaknesses... Cause after all of this I just want you back for good. But, I think that maybe Emelie is trying to understand me and my situation. Emelie is a good girl, like I once was. But it shouldn't be her, you should be here, in her place, you, only you. I'm still feeling emptiness inside of me. A huge hole in my chest is far from healing. And it scares me, all the people who want me back as well. Yeah, I think that 'scared' is the word that best describes me at this particular moment. I'm terrified, I admit it, I'm absolutely terrified. Just thinking about it makes me shaky and nervous. And when I'm nervous I lose confidence in myself and I'm already an unconfident person so it's even worse. You used to give me confidence, hope, happiness. You used to give me a lot of things. Things that I no longer have.
Cathy
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Letters for Rose {to be continued}
No FicciónBased on a true story this is the life of a teenager girl after she loses her best friend and her boyfriend!
