Letters for Rose {to be continued}

Dear Rose, (38)

Have you ever heard of the Butterfly effect? Well, I can explain why that is revelant. The Butterfly effect says that when one butterfly waves its wings in one part of the globe that on the other half of the globe a hurricane, this strong storm, appears. Isn't that amazing? I mean, one tiny little butterfly with tinny little colorful wings can induce an enormous destructive storm. That's amazing but also scary. What about the East butterflies? What about us after they waved their wings? Maybe it's me but it really feels scary and improbable. How can they have that much strength to do that? That's one of the reasons butterflies are one of my favorite animals in the planet. That's a pretty amazing effect on others lives. A tinny little butterfly can have such an impact on us. Well, it wasn't the only reason I told you this. The important apart about all of this is that you are a butterfly to me. You blink an eye, you cough, you smile, you breath and all that affects me here. You are probably thinking: how can that be possible? How can anything I do have an effect on you? Well, I have been asking the same things lately. I have absolutely no idea but it's true cause I feel it. So think about how much I am hurting because you decided to leave me as a friend, as a sister and preferred to become a butterfly. Is that your way of saying "I am stronger than you"? Cause if it is you are not only saying it, you are also making me experience it. And Rosalie? It's painful. It's definitely not something I enjoy and I don't think you enjoy it either so, please stop. Instead be a lion or a bear, I don't know. Be something else. Something that doesn't hurt others. Something strong but not aggressive. I would even say something better. Be better Rosalie. At least try.

Cathy