Letters for Rose {to be continued}

Dear Rose, (14)

I can see him in my dreams. Everytime I'm in trouble, everytime I feel like losing hope, everytime I cannot do someting he appears and saves me. But I only see him in my dreams. I've tried to do that exact thing in real life but he only comes to me in my dreams. I wake up every morning and I say to myself 'I have to tell Rosalie about my dream and tell her I saw him', but after one second I lose every hope I had before. I don't know what that's suposed to mean. I don't know why I see him and I don't know why he always comes when I'm not okay. I don't know why I see him and I don't see you. I was at the library some day and I started searching for books about dreams and I discovered that dreams are people most deep desire's so maybe, some day, I'll dream about you cause you're the only one I want by my side. Emelie makes me feel better but even Emelie can get dreams away. I feel like I have entered in a time machine and the time is completly frozen and so I feel exactly the same day by day... It still hurts, it still bothers me, it's still difficult. Come back.

Cathy