Sinfully in love

A change of mood

(Back at the safehouse) 

POV: Hayley 

It's been two days but those scenes refuse to leave me alone. I just don't have tears anymore, it's just agony, a pain that I can't cry about but only feel in my heart. I finished getting dressed up, again wearing all black. 

The NYPD didn't give us Marcus' body, they refused as only his remains were found. Ashes and bones and body parts. Donato and Jewel asked me if I wanted to have a funeral but why would I do that now? 

I won't do his funeral until I get the person who dared to burn him down. Jewel and Hunter came and told us that they talked about having a child, Hunter is now happy about the pregnancy. 

I would love to say everything getting better but for me, it's just hell now. I don't truly know what happened to me but my behavior has changed. I lashed at Donato for no reason too many times. One time yesterday, he tried to get me to eat as I refused to do so for the day and I shouted at him. 

He shouted back and since then we didn't talk or see each other. I need to go and talk to him now, everything is messed up enough. I went out of the room and to his new 'office'. It's not an office but a room that he just made into his working space. 

I went in and he was sitting on the bed with his hands behind his neck, he was facing the floor as if tired and disappointed. I went to the bed and climbed up on it and sat behind him. "Donato?" I placed my arms around his neck and hugged his back. 

He didn't reply so I bent a little over and kissed his forehead. "Love...Please talk to me, I'm sorry..." I said and he looked at me as I looked at him, standing on my knees on the bed. 

"I ain't angry..." He moved away and let out a groan. 
"I would believe you if you said that while looking at me." He stood up and turned to me. 
"Hayley, they won't let me visit the house." I slid down the bed and sat on the edge. 

I grabbed his hands and looked up at me. "What did they say?" I asked. 
"The police said we can't visit as it's registered as homicide...they will call us if you find something considered as evidence." He said and rubbed his eyes. 

I sighed and stood up and rested my head on his left shoulder. "Let's just not talk about this now. I'm tired of hearing police, murder...body...shit." He snuggled in my neck and grabbed my waist. 

"Fine." He pulled away and looked at me before picking my chin up a little and kissing my cheek. I sighed and kissed him. He kissed me back and I pulled him closer by grabbing his jacket collar. I guess a change of mood is all I have left as a solution. 

I moved and pushed him onto the bed and got on top of him. He slapped my hips softly then sat up on his elbows. I kissed his lips then went down to kiss his neck.

"Coleman, don't do this just for the sake of doing it...I don't want you like this, not in control of your mind." He said after he didn't kiss me back. 
"Are you saying I'm not sure?" I asked. 
"Exactly." 
"And you think you are right?" I said. 
"You're saying otherwise?" He asked. 

"I just want a change of mood and events...I told you...I just want an escape, Donato...better if we both enjoy it." He smirked softly and kissed my cheek. 
"As you desire." He said and kissed me. I kissed him back and ran my fingers through his hair. 

"Get up and close the door." He said as he slapped my ass indicating for me to get up. I got up and closed the door shut then looked at him as he took off his shirt and pants. I took off my top and sweat pants and climbed onto the bed. 

He got up and looked down at me. "Sit on your knees with your hands behind your back for me?" He said and I obeyed. The kink has indeed made it fun. He caressed my chin then slid down his underwear.