Flattery. Butterflies. Flirting and harmless fun. A new blossoming relationship. Talking, getting to know each other, finding some few interests we share. Trying new things, beautiful love notes and sweet nothings. Dancing, singing, drawing, holding hands and showing each other off to the whole world. Social media posts that show off who we are and how much we are in love and having fun.
I told my friends about you. They love you though they don't trust you because I can't really pick em well. You tell your friends about me. They hate me, and thats okay cause all I need is you.
Spending time together, falling in love, late night talks and getting to know each other. We explore each others minds and fall deeply in each others thoughts and later on our bodies. It was... an experience. You wanna spend time with me- you wanna control me. - You love being around me and seeing me everyday.
You tell me sweet words that make me swell and you hold me when I really want you to, and you let me hug you when I want your comfort. Its cold outside don't you know? And I didn't wear a very good hoodie, let me steal away all of yours, let me drown in your scents and be comforted by your clothing when I am alone. I have so much of your clothes. I love you.
We have so much fun together, I love your room, and look at that beautiful view, your beautiful comfortable bed illuminated by the sunset cascading through your huge open window, the clouds drowning in the gorgeous colors. I love your room. Its so creative and so you, and yet not you all at the same time. I know that your working on yourself and you still need to break out of this rough draft mold of yourself that you have created so you can keep going.
I love the feeling of you close to me, your hugs are like straight dopamine to my brain- The anxiety is filtered to be butterflies that fly up my throat and- I love you.
I don't love them anymore I promise. I don't love them anymore I promise. I swear. I promise. I don't love them like that anymore I promise. Baby I promise. I swear. I pro-
How many times do I have to reassure you? I love you.
You are so insecure my love, and thats okay, you are beautiful - you are beautiful - you are beautiful -
WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME
You are beautiful.
You are so suspicious of me love, I know we just started out but hey, I care about you I'm here for you.
I don't love her, I don't love her, I don't love her.
I know we don't have a lot in common but hey thats okay, we can teach each other new things compromise and learn to try more new things together. I hate new, you hate knew, but hey, I don't hate you.
Hey your love notes don't sound quite right, you don't seem all in. Hey do you love me? Hey are you over him...? Hey I don't trust her. YOU GUYS HAVE DONE WHAT?? I don't trust her. Thank you for cutting her off, she was toxic anyway. You don't need all this drama love, I'm here its okay.
Hey its okay we've both been through stuff, we both have a past. Are you lying about this..? Why does everything have to be about you. I love you...
Your family is so toxic. Run away with me. Why do you wanna stay? None of this matters. Why can't I hang with my friends? So what if their all gay.. I don't like any of them like that. Why don't you trust me? WHY DON'T YOU JUST TRUST ME? I didn't cheat on you, I love you. I didn't cheat on you. I didn't cheat on you. Baby I love you..
Hey we can make it through this, we both got trust issues its okay, don't apologize love its okay - I CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS - I love you honey I love you.
Your touch is starting to feel like venom and its not running as sweet as it once did, your room is starting to look dark and you've closed the blinds on your windows..
Summer is almost here love, we can go on so many dates, we can hang out so much, I miss you.
Why can't you just ever let me be alone. I'm not cheating on you I promise. Baby I am alone in my room I'm not cheating I promise. Baby I am literally just on a walk trying to clear my cloudy head I'm not cheating I promise.
Why do you wanna hang out with him. He's your ex and maybe this makes me hypocritical but baby you wanted to date him again before I came into your life. Love I trust you, I don't trust him. No I don't wanna meet him, I don't trust him around you.
Why have you suddenly been so busy and unable to come around...? Hey I miss you, I love you, HEY I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU-
You know they say that if someone is accusing you of something its either past fear, or current fear that someone will find out your doing what is accused.
I need to leave.
You don't treat me the same and you never let me see my friends, I love you I miss you but you just keep controlling me and gaslighting and- I love you.
I need you..
You are so mean to me.. I don't remember why I wanna stay with you... but I love you-
Listen. You need to leave, take your stuff. I can't talk my voice won't work I'm too scared. I had a whole thing memorized in my head but looking at you now I just can't say or think a single thing. You make me scared. Not of you, but of me wanting and loving you. I want you to stay but I just can't let you and I'm sorry.
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Why did you treat me so bad..? Does our memories ever torment you like they do me..? Do you miss me? Do you ever wonder what I'm up to now? I know you at least want me to know your doing good, if what you say is ever true. Because when I am forced to be around you you speak so loud. SHUT UP! You speak so loud. I miss you. Your so toxic and I know your not good for me. I miss you. I think I just miss the toxicity but honestly I don't know if I'll ever know.
I hope your doing good.
