Sparks in the Dark

I'm Falling

Falling. If falling means to be with you I will fall fearlessly and with nothing but hope that I will land right where you are. Though my mind is littered with fears and anxieties I will clear out a spot just for you where I can return to feel safe and quiet minded. This place will be peaceful and filled with nothing but love for you. 

Music catches me and throws me into a blissful deep red room, warm and comforting. Space doesn't feel as homely as you do to me now, though I didn't want to fall for you at first and I kept my distance for a long while, it all seems so natural now, the anxiety melts into nervousness that I carry for you, my heart likes to jump up into my throat and try to silence me but I am screaming in my soul for you. 

I fear that I will move to fast and scare you away like a bunny in my yard so I will lay down and watch you for now, I move too fast for some, and too anxious for others. I just hope you'll accept me for who I am, you seem so soft hearted and caring on top of that locked up heart, so open and free yet so self caged. I wish to keep you free, not to lock you down. 

Though commitment means you are tied to me, I think we've been tied since the beginning, I promise I won't hold you down if you try to fly, I'm here to soar with you, and if you want to be grounded I will ground will you. 

With all of the poetic sentences in my head, they get jumbled and when I think about you my thoughts become scrambled eggs. Its hard to unjumble all these thoughts out, I have so much to say and feel with you, so many new experiences and memories to make, I don't wanna overwhelm you because in my mind we are moving so fast but in the real world you've only been here for 5 days, my heart just falls so fast and I am already so willing to love and try this out with you, so willing to get to know you and hold your heart close with mine. 

I promise I will be so careful, like holding a butterfly I will slow my breathing so you are at peace with me, I will shift my energetic ways and will become accustomed to how you are, I will treat you with all the respect in my body, I will hold so much adoration for you for as long as you will let me. I will be here till you tell me to leave.