Sparks in the Dark

Head, Heart, Gut. A Continuation..

H: Head

Ht: Heart

G: Gut

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H: Where are they? Did they not come to lunch today? Wait do they have this lunch with us or are we remembering wrong?

Ht: There they are! Who are they sitting with..? 

H: New friend and possible ex boyfriend

Ht: Did they date or are they still dating or are they exs, are they close friends

G: I think they might be bad people

H: Your just saying that

Ht: He looked over here and he's looking around, is he looking for me?? If he sees me will he make eye contact???? Do you think he misses us..?

G: Your friends catching on, quit looking

Ht: I just wanna see if he's looking

H: He's just looking around, almost everyone looks around.

Ht: But what if he's looking for me. He sat closer today

G: He sat closer today.

H: Focus on your friend

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H: 5 More minutes till lunch is over

Ht: He's not looking around anymore

H: He was talking to someone out of sight before, maybe he was looking for them

Ht: but...

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H: Bell rung get up end conversation get to class don't think

G: He's near us

H: Where is he??

Ht: He's passing in front of us

H, Ht, G: HE LOOKED AT US.

Ht: Was that a sly smile????? Did I SEE HIM SMILE???? DID HE SMILE?? HE LOOKED AT US!! WE MADE EYE CONTACT!

H: What if it was smug and mislead. What if he still cares? He hurt us. What was the smile about? Why did he look at us? Why did he go out our usual door instead of the other like usual? Did he find us to walk by us? Does he know? Can he feel us? DOES HE KNOW?? 

Ht: What if he still loves us, what if there's a second chance, what if he's healthier now, what if we can finish our story what if we can go again, what if we just talk again-

H: He hurt us. This is wrong. He was horrible to us.

Ht: I know but-!

H: We can't go through that again.

Ht: ... but- 

H: Not again. 

Ht: ... 🦋💓🦋💓🦋💓🦋💓🦋

H: Fuck.