Sparks in the Dark

Sun Moon

I am outside of the stream. 

While others swim instinctively, peacefully, with little to no worries, I stand by this creak turn to river turn to ocean. So many people swim and follow this flow of life, its natural to them, getting what they need as they progress further, food comes naturally and so does comfort, little to worry about but the speed of the flow and the occasional rocks. 

I  wouldn't dare say that some these people haven't had rough starts, or disadvantages, or say that some have it harder or easier. 

Just it is so lonely being outside of the stream, of course I could always walk through it and in it, or follow along side it, as I usually try to, but I can't help but look out into the vast forest and wonder what else there is. 

This stream is all I know, and I've followed my swimmer friends all this way, them dragging along as slowly as the others. Keeping the leaches away and the predator's. 

I wish someone could just see as vastly out as me. See the possibilities, their subconscious to be as vastly open as my own, knowing the possibilities and enhancing one another. 

I wish I could have that natural instinctive sun moon relationship. It comes to easy to some, it comes harder for others who sacrifice to get there. Most don't get it at all. I want a challenging love that broadens us both, expanding our minds. I want someone to think and feel with, someone I can trust and feel and just expand my ideas and mind with. I want someone who knows how I feel. 

If your out there, I'm not sure if I'm ready, or if I'll ever be, but I'm here. Please come find me my love..