Sweetest Rebellion

Chapter 23

Tulad ng plano ay magsisimba ako kasama sina Ate Ragel at Ate Raven. Ewan ko sa dalawang iyon pero kailangan din daw nila kaya hinayaan ko nalang para na rin may kasama ako.

Baka kailangan na ring mag-sorry kay Rold Susej. Kidding. Itinuro lang iyan saakin ni Derick at Miss Noelle.

Kasalukuyan kaming nasa pool area ni Ate Ragel habang hinihintay na matapos si Ate Raven nang sumagi nanaman sa isip ko ang nangyari noong victory party.

"Ate, I have a question." panimula ko

"Uh-huh? Spill." she sipped on her orange juice

"Is it possible to forget when you're drunk?" maski ako ay medyo nalito sa tanong ko

"You mean like, blackout?" she asked

"What blackout?" kunot noo akong tumingin sakanya

"Blackout like you may appear to be awake but your brain just does not store memories." she explained briefly, deepening my frown

"But what if you remember some events that occurred, just not everything?" hindi pa rin kasi nasasagot ng tuluyan ang tanong ko kaya hindi ako mapirmi

"Still a blackout, just fragmentary or partial. You know, when you have some recollection of what happened yet there are gaps in your memory. Iyong iba naaalala mo, iyong iba hindi."

Oh. That's it. That exaplained pretty much everything, though I still have questions, Ate Ragel isn't the person to ask them to.

"Why'd you ask? Is it still about that one night stand you had?" I hesitantly nodded at her.

"I just don't remember very well who I did it with and how we got there. The last thing I remember clearly, I was at the counter drinking then next, I was already doing the deed with someone I am not certain who." komportableng sagot ko

Iyon pala ang paliwanag doon. Mabuti nalang at kahit paano matalino si Ate Ragel.

At dahil siya ang huli kong naaalalang kasama ko, maslalo lang lumakas ang kutob ko na may nalalaman siya. Asking Professor Thomas is the only option I have right now if I really want to free my head. How though?

Naputol naman ang sandaling pag-iisip ko nang sumulpot si Ate Raven. Nakaroba parin ito at hindi pa nakakapagbihis.

"I invited Isla, wala pa rin ba? Daanan mo na nga sa bahay niya, Reagan." utos ni Ate Raven saakin

Nagtatampo pa rin ako kay Ma'am dahil sa hindi nito pagpunta sa pageant ko. Hindi pa nga ako kinakausap noon kahit na nagpupunta siya sa bahay.

"Okay, fine."

Tamad akong tumayo at naglakad na patungo sa bahay niya. Mabuti nalang at maaga pa kaya hindi pa gaanong mainit. Kapag nagtanghali ay tila ka na hinuhurno sa labas.

Kahit naman nagtatampo ako sakanya, gusto ko pa rin talaga siyang makita. Pero totoong masama ang loob ko, lumalamang lang ang pagkakamiss ko sakanya. I should probably learn how to control myself when it comes to her.

Mabagal ang ginawa kong paglalakad patungo sa bahay niya habang pinag-iisipan kung paano ako aakto sa harap nito gayong naglalaro parin sa isip ko ang mga katanungan.

I went to rang her doorbell thrice when I arrived at her residence. She answered the door after the third bell with a deep scowl on her face when she saw that the person was me.

"Tara na raw, Ma'am Thomas." walang ganang aya ko dito. Pabebe naman, Reagan.

Her eyes were flared with confusion as she met mine, but it was short-lived because rage swiftly replaced it. I brushed it aside. She has no right to be enraged with me. If there's someone who should be resentful between the two of us, it should be me.