blind to toxicity - minsung

chapter thirty five

jisung let out a small sigh as he looked over his outfit in the mirror. a simple pair of black joggers with one of his boyfriend's t shirts.

he threw on one of won-jaes hoodie's, grabbed his black and white fuzzy jacket off the back of his door, and walked downstairs.

as he reached the bottom of the stairs, his heart dropped as he saw his mum sat on the living room couch.

he forgot she came home early of a wednesday.

instead of letting his mum see his face jisung quickly hurried to the front door, only to be stopped by a soft call.

"jisung darling?" she asked as she watched her son refuse to turn round, keeping his back turned to her with his hand on the doorknob.

"i'm going to jae's for the night." jisung replied quietly, his heart speeding up as he heard his mum slowly walk over.

"is something wrong, hun?" she asked as she stood a few feet behind him. "you never normally leave without saying goodbye..."

jisung felt a hand on his shoulder, trying to fight the urge to turn around.

"honey, please look at me..."

she heard a defeated sigh before her son slowly turned round. she let out a slight gasp as she covered her mouth with her hands.

"baby, what happened!?" jia reached up and cupped jisung's cheek, taking care to gently rub her thumb over his small cut.

"he didn't mean it mum! it was an accident." jisung spoke too quickly to realise what he'd said.

"he!?" jia quickly questioned. "who's he? did you get hit by someone!?"

jisung cringed, he forgot that he had always described an injury as an accident by 'someone in a mosh pit'.

"erm h-he's..."

jisung didn't know what to say. if he told the truth, he was terrified his parents may stop him seeing won-jae altogether.

"mum, it was my fault." jisung finally spoke. "jae was drunk a-and he caught me accidentally."

jia looked at him as his eyes slowly glossed over,
"jae? your...your boyfriend jae?"

jisung watched his mum tense before he let out a choked sob. he hadn't realised how much he'd truly been keeping from his parents.

"so...the concerts?" she softly rubbed his cheek as jisung shook his head, hiding his face in his hands until he felt himself being pulled into a tight hug.

"b-but," jisung tried to continue. "every time he's h-hit me he always apologises as do i...he tells me how sorry he was and how much he loves me. i-i love him so much mum, please don't stop me going."

jia only rubbed his back as she rested his head on her shoulder.

"god, you've been going through this for how long?" she asked herself. "i feel like such a bad mother i never noticed."

jisung quickly snapped his head back, being immediately shushed by his mum as she realised her words.

"darling, it's not your fault." she quickly assured. "i'm so proud of you for telling me, okay?" she smoothed his hair back as his breathing slowly steadied.

"i will have to tell your father about this when he comes back because this is not something i can keep from him, do you understand?"

"p-please let me go, mum." jisung stuttered as he flicked his gaze between her eyes. "he's going to apologise to me."

jia dropped her hands from his face as she raised them to her own head, feeling conflicted in what to say.

"jisung,"'she said sternly as she looked up at him "if he doesn't apologise tonight, i want you to come straight home."

"he will." jisung assured as he noticed his mum still unsure in her words.

"i won't lie to you, darling," she sighed "i really don't like this...but im trusting you that if he doesn't apologise, you will call me immediately to pick you up."

jisung furiously nodded his head as he held her hands. "i promise."

jia leant forward to place a light kiss on his forehead before bringing him into another hug.

even though she would rather have jisung at home than with won-jae, it was clear that jisung wouldn't have been able to cope if he didn't get the closure he so desperately needed.

"tell you what, darling," she smiled as she rested her hands on his face. "i'll drive you there."

jisung gave her a small smile as he nodded, he walked out the door as he waited for his mum to get her car keys before leaving.

on the way to the house, the two were sat in silence. jisung was feeling anxious with every passing second while jia's mind was very much preoccupied.

as the two pulled up outside the house, jia switched off the engine and turned to face him.

"now," she began sternly. "if i don't hear from you in less than half an hour,  im going to come back here and take you home, do you understand me?"

jisung nodded as he placed his hand over hers that was resting on his shoulder, "you'll hear from me mum, i promise you."

jia tightly embraced him one last time before letting him go, and watched as he climbed out the car.

"i love you so much jisung," she said as he stood with the door open, "we'll talk about this another time."

her voice was stern but her expression was soft, reassuring jisung that she was still proud of him.

jisung smiled as he nodded in understanding, "i love you too, mum." he replied before shutting the door and walking up the path to the door.

they shared one more wave before jisung knocked on the door.

once he'd gone into the house, jia sighed before driving away and beginning the journey back home.

while driving, jia came to the realisation that she would need to speak to those close to jisung. she knew there was still more to the relationship than jisung had told her.

once she reached her now empty house, she decided to ring chan, planning to ask him and the rest of the group what exactly had been going on for the last few months jisung and won-jae had been together.

tonight jia and dohyun were going to find out everything jisung had been going through. everything that had so far gone unspoken, until now.

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24.7.22