blind to toxicity - minsung

chapter fifty one

jisung had nodded and now the two were stood outside jisung's bedroom door.

minho barely managed a smile as jisung opened the door and gestured for minho to lead the way.

he shut it behind minho and felt a knot in his stomach at how tense minho looked.

"is everything okay, min?" he asked as minho slowly met his eyes.

he took a deep breath as he rubbed his nape, "there's erm, there's something i need to tell you."

"o-okay," jisung felt his heart race. minho hadn't looked this worried in a while.

minho gestured for them to sit on the bed. he sat with his back against the headboard as jisung crawled onto the bed to sit opposite him.

the unusual space between them, made them feel as though they were miles apart.

"b-before i say this," minho gulped, "if at any point you feel it's too much, just tell me and i'll stop."

jisung felt anxiety coursing through his body, only managing a nod as he tried to get himself comfortable.

"s-so there was something you said last night...how you talked about not being sure if won-jae was erm, right for you."

he felt his heart racing as if it could explode out his chest at any moment.

"when we saw you on friday evening i was hit with so many different emotions...there was anger, fear, and i could feel my heart breaking at how much pain you were in. only, it wasn't the first time i'd felt like that. fuck, jisung, it probably wasn't even the tenth."

he kept his eyes down as he fiddled with his hands in his lap.

"the first time he hit you, i couldn't believe you stayed. it killed me to hear you put all the blame on yourself and try and hide your pain from us so we wouldn't worry. but, it did make us worry as we couldn't bear to see you put yourself through that."

he felt his throat tighten as tears formed in his eyes. he swallowed hard and attempted to continue.

"t-the times when you'd come to us and feel guilty for spending time away from won-jae, it made me feel so selfish as i didn't want you to go...none of us did. when we'd see you feeling sorry for yourself or with a new injury it broke our hearts, ji."

his voice cracked as took a moment to stable his breathing.

"when you'd tell us what had happened to you i-i just felt so guilty. i should have been there to protect you. we all kept our opinions to ourselves as we didn't want you to lose the one thing you couldn't live without..."

an attempt to look at jisung failed as minho quickly brought his gaze down to the bed as he took another deep breath.

"the truth is jisung...i can't live without you."

he stayed quite for a second as he nervously ran a hand through his hair.

"it h-hurts to see anyone go through what you did, and no one should ever be treated like that...but truthfully it hurt even more with you because..."

he slowly lifted his head as he managed to meet jisung's eyes.

"...because i'm in love with you, jisung."

minho sighed and looked back down at his lap.

all that time where he had stayed silent, minho had finally told jisung how he felt.

he slowly felt his head lifted up as jisung cupped his jaw with one hand.

minho's eyes widened before swiftly closing as jisung had slowly leant in to connect their lips. minho hardly had time to react as he sat up against the headboard to reciprocate the kiss.

jisung pushed himself further into minho as their kiss was deepened. he gripped onto minho's shirt and moved his body down into the bed where their lips stayed firmly pressed together.

he pulled minho with just enough force so now minho was positioned on top of him.

both of them felt their bodies tingling as they began to pour every emotion they had into the kiss.

minho moved his hand to cup jisung's cheek as their lips continued to move against each other. he felt cold tears against his hand but couldn't decipher if they were purely his own.

jisung brought his body back up so they were back to their original position. he slowly pulled away and let his eyes flutter open as their gaze locked.

"m-min," jisung choked out as he sighed. "all this time you made me feel something that jae never could..."

"what?" minho softly asked as he caught his breath, "w-what do you feel?"

jisung let out a laugh through tears as he kept his eyes firmly on minho.

"...appreciated."

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a/n
minho confessed 🥳🎉
there is a reason this is a minsung book, and i'm glad it's finally obvious

hope you enjoyed!

kayceeliz <3
20.8.22