Lucifer Imagines

You Can Jump For All I Care (P.t 4)

(TW: Vague description of Suicide. General speaking of a dark head space. Suicide is not a romantic subject. This chapter describes a person who is grieving, it is an example of the extent of mental health. Please skip this chapter this content will upset you. If you are feeling this way, please reach out to someone. You are not alone, you are loved x)

Last time on You Can Jump For All I Care... Lucifer did his best to hide everything going on in his head as he stared at your corpse, he cracked and soon the devil you knew was not so devilish anymore. 

Lucifer was human. 

It had been a month since you decided it was a good idea to jump off the side of a bridge. You had been so certain that he would catch you, he could see it in your eyes as you fell. Now, he walked the same path as every other miserable mortal. 

He couldn't even handle his alcohol the same way but the more alcohol he drank the less he felt and to him, that was better than the pain that constantly surged through his chest. He was lucky that Lux practically ran itself, not that he'd care much if it crashed and burned.

Lucifer never liked the thought of people being in such pain or finding themselves devoid of all feeling. He also never thought he would experience it to the extent that he was. He had a whole new level of understanding. He empathized with and related to those people. He was those people. He wished he could help them but he just didn't have enough in him. 

Not without you. 

You were his motivation, you were his muse, his everything. Without you, all the things he wished he could do... would never happen. 

Lucifer had pondered many times if this was his father's plan all along, if he had created you for him, so he would fall head over heels for you, only to break his heart. He thought about this before the two of you stood on the bridge. 

He couldn't get it out of his head, he couldn't stop the feeling in his chest. Your words kept circling, 'I love you' It was blunt but soft, it set hummingbirds off in his chest. 

'I love you, but I can't be fighting for my life all the time just because we're friends. So, what am I to you Lucifer? Tell me now, break me or not, just do it now.'

He had memorized those words, they haunted him. They were everything he wanted to hear and at the same time, they broke him. You really had fought for your life so many times because you were associated with him. 

He wishes he could explain that to you. He wishes he could tell you that you were the love of his life, that he loved you so much he didn't want you to be with him. 

Because he knew his love would be the death of you. He knew your death would be the end of him.

He leaned against the railing of his balcony, eyes flickering with vague motivation over the shining city lights. He did not belong there. Even as a human he did belong. 

An hour later he found himself stood at the side of the bridge. The bridge. Your bridge. The one that your friends and family would always associate to you. That he would forever see circling your head. 

Your eyes entered his mind. The sound of your laugh sat in his ears. Not another thought dared enter his mind. 

Two steps forward. A leg swung over the side, then the other. One last step. 

Lucifer was falling. He faced the stars. He waited.

He did not hit the ground. He was jolted. His eyes blinded by the blazing sun, feet secure on the wooden planks below him. The smell of your conditioner lingered. A familiar pattern of blood scattered over his hand. 

He hadn't understood where he was or how he got there. 

A voice froze his every muscle.

"I love you." You admit bluntly. "I love you, but I can't be fighting for my life all the time just because we're friends. So, what am I to you Lucifer? Tell me now, break me or not, just do it now." You stand quickly whipping around to look down at him.

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