No one asked for this but here you go.
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It's been Three months since Blaine's funeral. Kurt knocked on the Anderson house and didn't bother smiling at Blaine's mom "Is it ok if I go lay in his room? I haven't slept in weeks and may dad said that he would sleep on my moms side of the bed and he would be able to sleep a little bit."
Pam shook his head "I'm sorry honey I know you think you loved him but he was a high school romance for you so I would really appreciate it if you wouldn't come round here. You have no idea what our family is going through right now."
Kurt tried to hold back his tears "I didn't think I loved him I knew I loved him I still love him that's never ever going to go away. Please I'm really desperate once I've slept for an hour or 2 I'll leave and never come back I promise just please you know Blaine would let me."
Pam nods "Don't touch anything apart from his bed"
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"Cooper?" Kurt asked the boy "I need to sleep."
Cooper nods "I'm surprised mom let you up here she's blaming you well not really her head or though."
Kurt yawns "Do you have the key to his desk draw? If you do could you get the book he made for me? and one of his shirts and I'll leave when I wake up."
*****
4 hours later
Kurt wakes up and take's the stuff cooper left for him and went home. His dad smiles a little "It's good Pam let you get some sleep. I thought you and Blaine would leave forever together and I'm so sorry you lost him."
Kurt was done crying he hand no more tears left too "Because Blaine was a really romantic boyfriend he made me a book so I'm going to read it I'm not eating dinner tonight I'll end up throwing it up. I'm not allowed back to Blaine's room I have a shirt that will last maybe two days and then he's gone forever. So I would really appreciate if you just left me downstairs for a while."
*******
Kurt opened the book and took a deep breath
Level one of and awesome summer after graduation
- Go to New York
- Watch a Musical
-Look around our college
- come back to ohio
Level two
- Sleep at each other's house
- pack to go back to NYC
- go back to NYC
-By a ring
This next level is not for you eyes so hand me back the book ♡︎
Kurt let tears fell "I wish I could."
Level three
-Plan Proposal to Kurt
- The stairs at Dalton where we first met
- Sing all you need is love to him
- Kurt the moment I took your hand and we ran down that hall way I knew you weren't going anywhere. It was like my heart knew something that my body and my mind didn't know yet. It knew that our hands were meant to hold each other. As if in every life time you and I have ever lived we have chosen to come back and find each other and fall in love all over again over and over for all eternity. So with that said Kurt Hummel my best friend my one true love will you marry me?
"Yes." Kurt said with tears running down his face "Yes Blaine I'll marry you I promise just come back and ask me please? I'll say yes 1 billion times just come back to me."
He was crying so loud he didn't even hear Finn come in the room "Kurt? What happened you've cried but never this load? Did someone say something bad about him?"
Kurt looked up and shook his head Finn helped him calm down so he could speak. "No.... erm this summer after we graduated he was gonna propose to me he wrote what he was gonna do to ask. It's lovely, I planned our whole summer so that I would have an amazing time before a big surprise. He loved me so much and I definitely took him for granted. You never know how much you really love someone until you loose them Finn. Talk to Rachel because you never know if you're gonna wake up in the morning and she's still there. What ever it is you're arguing over it's definitely not worth the loss of time."
Finn nods he knew Kurt was completely right and was going to make things right with Rachel but then he noticed the page was a bit lumpy so he turned it over "Erm Kurt there's more."
Kurt gasps he took the ring out of the blue see-through back "It's beautiful I'm gonna wear it and never take it off." He out it on his ring finger so he could pretend. "I will keep it on and then when I die I'll find Blaine and we'll get married."
Finn smiles when he sees his brother's eyes light up "That's sweet but not any time soon."
Kurt hugs Finn "Don't worry I know. Everyone's going to think I'm stupid but I need to deal with my heart ache in my own way. Do you think dad will understand."
Finn shrugs "You get some sleep I'm sorry you couldn't get your forever after. I'll tell Burt for you just so he isn't confused."
*******
Burt smiled when his son actually came upstairs "Look Kurt you've done all your exams you did amazing you're Graduating the school said you only have to go back for graduation in three weeks so you have time to breathe. He had a good eye."
Kurt looked down at his hand "How long did you stop pretending? I mean you were married this is nothing he didn't get the chance to ask me."
Burt told him to sit down "It took me 5 years to take off my ring, and that is the ring he was going to ask you with. It's all you have I get it. You aren't pretending Kurt you might never find anyone like Blaine but you could find somebody who can accept that there not Blaine."
Kurt hugs his dad tightly "Does the pain ever go away or will I alway have a longing in my heart the pain in my test? It feels like I'm about to explode we dated for 2 and a half years dad am I supposed to erase that?"
Burt shook his head "The pain in you chest will go it's just because you're crying kiddo. The longing in your heart won't that's still there for me for you mom. But Carol fixed the Lizzie shaped while in it and you can find someone like that too."
Kurt nods "You really think so?"
Burt hugged and kissed his sons head "I know so."
******
10 years later
Kurt POV:
I miss Blaine every day and every year it gets worse. I'm not sure why this pain is worse then when I lost my mom. Maybe it's because I'm older. I haven't took off the ring. I can't bring myself to give my heart to someone other than him. I know that who ever took my Blaine away from me is rotting in jail, but that doesn't bring him back. What i would give to just have one last kiss or hug or one of our movie nights. I have achieved our dream and I won two awards for it. For being the first gay man play a romantic lead. I wish I did it with Blaine I wish I did everything with Blaine but he would be so happy that I still got on Broadway. And I know he was there watching me in the seat I reserved for him every night. Just like he promised he would be.
"God I love you so much Blaine I promise to live enough for the both of us."
