Too Kurt
H...Hello Kurt it's Blaine I know what I did was horrible and I know now that I have lost you in my life for good now. *shaky breath* I just don't have anyone in my life anymore my d...dad finally decided to leave my mom and it's all because of me. I just needed to talk to you but I realise I don't have the right to ask for your comfort anymore. God this is so stupid of me. *voice crack* just know that why I did it was not because I don't love you cause god I love you more than anyone and anything. It's just you were gone and that is no excuse. The funny ironic thing is the second it was over I knew we were meant to be and I just fucked everything up. I didn't even know the guy!! Like god Kurt he's some guy off Facebook can you believe that?! No I bet you couldn't cause you'd think at least you're worth so much more than for your boyfriend to cheat on you with someone he'd been talking to for at least a few years. No I go and do it with some random on Facebook. You're worth so much more than me anyway this is definitely for the best. Here's me getting mad you were texting a guy and I can't even wait 3 months. Just know I love you and I wish I could hug you right now I could definitely use it cause no one understands the way I am feeling right now but I know you would. You always do. Oh god I'm so stupid I don't even know why I'm still talking cause you won't listen. *deep breath* if you do listen to it I hope you will call me back or even just a quick text cause as much as I don't deserve it I don't think I can handle my parents divorce without your help. I get it if you don't want to help me though I get if you've lost all care you had for me all the Lo..... oh god if I've lost your love I think I might just die. I'm gonna stop talking god knows how long this is. See you la.... Goodbye Kurt.
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3 miss calls from Blaine ❤️
1 voicemail of Blaine 5.32 minutes
I roll my eyes god this boy needs to give me room too breathe still I couldn't not listen to the voicemail. By the end I Just about broke down. Rachel came running out of her room "Oh Kurt." She hugged me tightly and looked at my phone "you know for someone who cheated on you he sure doesn't know how to leave you for good. Honestly the cheek."
I smile a little "I know why he did it though I still can't forgive him but I understand." She shook her head "Kurt no you're awesome do let thi....."
I laughs and shake my head at her "God Rachel I know I am its not cause of me. I can't explain to you either ok? I just know. I'm gonna give him a quick call. No buts I know what I'm doing trust me."
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Kurt Blaine
"Hello?" *long pause*
"K... Kurt?"
"Yes it's me look listen to me I know you are sorry and I believe that you are sorry ok? I am just not ready to forgive you yet maybe I will someday just not now. My trust for you has gone Blaine. Which I know you know. However as much as I wish I could deny it you're still my best friend and I meant it when I said I'd never say goodbye to you."
"You're mine too forever! God Kurt I love you so much."
"I love you too now I'm coming to Lima tomorrow. I miss my dad but also I feel a certain someone may need me with them."
"Oh Kurt no don't do that for me I'll be fine you save your money for the holidays ok?"
"Nope I'm coming especially cause that hug sounds nice and we need to start just being friends again which will be hard but nothing we can't handle right."
"Right! See you tomorrow then?"
"Yeah. Oh and Blaine?"
"Yeah?"
"Its not your fault it's your dad's promise me you know that ok cause it's not you it's him its always been him and your mom loves and I love you a lot the love hasn't gone away."
"Ok. Goodb...."
"I'll see you later Blaine."
*shaky laugh* "See you later Kurt."
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Rachel smiles at me and gave me a big hug "That was very sweet of you. Wait tell Blaine he should get tested if it was with some random."
"Surely he would have been safe it may have been stupid but he's not right?" Rachel shrugs "he might have been but do you really think in that situation he would've. Well you know. I mean did he top when he was with you."
I gasp in horror "Rachel why would you even ask that oh my god! That is private." She shrugs "ok fine he did the first couple times but then we had a conversation and well then he stopped. Maybe you're right I'll talk to him."
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I knocked on Blaine's door and Pam answered "Kurt? Kurt! Even after what he did I knew you'd come help him. I'm so worried for him go put a smile on his face even if it is only a couple hours." I frown "He's really that bad?"
"Not a single smile since he came back from New York. He's even stoped playing piano I am in no way saying what he did was right but he is still my son so he has my support and I'm sorry."
I nod "I know Pam and it's ok. I really didn't know he was punishing himself like this though he loves piano."
Pam sighs "He loves you too he told me now that he did that to you he doesn't deserve it."
I roll my eyes "I'm forcing him to play right now!"
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"You piano now!" He looked at me and shook his head "No."
I drag him out of bed and to his piano "Play something I know and I'll sing it with you." He gave me a look "I'm serious I am not letting us breaking up make you stop playing piano play right now. Nothing depressing either."
He started playing dancing queen and stopped I sat next to him "Play it! If you don't I will leave." I joked
He smiled "Ok."
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The song ended and I so badly wanted to kiss him but I knew I couldn't so I didn't. "Now play something more pianoie."
He laughs "more pianoie? What does that even mean?" I hit him playfully "You know what I mean."
He played and I listened and I watched. And it was like nothing had changed however I had to keep reminding myself that this Blaine my Blaine was no longer a man he could trust. I smile at him slightly "I should go my dad would want me back."
Blaine nods sadly "you don't have too lie for me Kurt I get it go. Sorry for sending the voicemail too it was stupid."
I look at him brokenly "How can that smile be taken away so quickly?" He shrugged "I don't have a reason to smile anymore thanks for trying maybe we can try again a at Christmas?"
I nod but I know now that we'll never be the same I thought we could be. I was wrong how do soulmates become just friends again. So I sigh and I say the one thing I promised and swore I never would. I knew it would brake him but honestly he needed it and so did I. "Goodbye Blaine."
