All For You

𝟑𝟒.

𝐈𝐳𝐚

I raised my eyebrows at him, giving him yet another puzzled look. "This is my surprise? A field full of snow?"

"Not just a field of snow," Leo denied, shaking his head before suddenly seizing my hand and leading me to the centre of the field. "I'm giving you your fairytale dream."

"My...fairytale dream?" How did he know that?

"Yeah, caught it a few years back," Leo responded within a millisecond of a heartbeat, as he took his backpack off and swung it to the ground.

"When?" I questioned, scrunching my face up in confusion.

"Well, I don't think you remember it quite well because you were ten at the time, but I finally got the courage to talk to you and you were talking about dancing and playing around with someone you love in the snow had always been your fairytale dream," Leo explained to me, a small smile forming on his face at the memory of that night.

"I know I don't fill in for the someone you love bit, but no one was up to breaking in." Leo added in, rubbing the back of his neck nervously.

My face dropped to one of both shock and admiration. I thought all these years apart, he would have forgotten we actually knew each other as children, I mean I had out of all the chaos of the past two years. Did he really remember my childishly stupid words from eight years ago? Did he remember the unnecessary long route he would take to get to Aran's room? 

Leo then turned back at me and caught the look on my face. "Shit, did I get it wrong?" He suddenly said, an extremely concerned look on his face. "Fuck, I'm sorry. I had a lot on my mind talking to you- shit, I shouldn't be making excuses what the fuck's wrong with me-"

"Leo." I grabbed his hand, and as he turned to me with the same panic-stricken look from before. I clasped his hands onto a part of my chest where my heart was. "It's fine, you got it right."

"Why were you looking at me like that then?" He said, his voice shaking at the end as he knitted his brows together.

"I'm just shocked that's all," I answered, casually shrugging my shoulders although I think it was all more of a stiff movement rather than something casual. "No guy has ever paid that much attention to me."

"Are you kidding?" He asked, his face twisted with confusion and curiosity.

"No, I'm not," I replied after a while of thinking how to word this all without setting some weird tension between us, I scrunched my nose as my lips set to a hard line. Wanting to slap myself for finally expressing a thought from my heart. "Nobody knows me like you do, Torres."

Leo's jaw went slack all the while keeping his eyes on me with that same puzzled expression. "What is there to not know about you?" He asked finally after a while. "You've drawn me in from the moment I've seen you, you're like this huge beautiful kaleidoscope and every time I get to think that I know you well enough you tilt another angle and suddenly I'm entranced by another stunning view that I have to know." 

My jaw dropped for a second before I picked it up and moved closer towards Leo. My mouth pulled to a frown as I spoke, "I don't know a thing about you," I said, chewing on my bottom lip as I let guilt overtake me.

He does so much for me. He knows me from top to bottom yet the only thing I know about him is that he sings a few songs that I love.

Weirdly enough, I wanted to know more about him.

I crave to know what makes him jump up in joy and what makes him cry out in pain. Something in me wanted to memorise every bit of him, both his light and his darkness-